Preface
This story is the first in a series of novellas, and as
such, is an “origin story”. I would be delighted to receive readers’ responses
to the story, both from the point of view of the story, and also as regards to
the “rules of the universe” as I have outlined them. This story is not written
as a fantasy, where one can invent any rules one wants to, but is instead
closer to the genre of science fiction, with the sincere attempt to describe an
uncharted world that might indeed be real.
Is the spirit world as I have described it? I believe
that it is similar, but since one cannot prove something like this, we’ll all
have to wait until we get there to find out. I have based the environment and
attributes of the spirit world on many books that I have read, combined with my
own personal beliefs and attempts at logic. I particularly recommend three
books that purport to be true accounts. The first is “Life in the World Unseen”
(and its sequel), by Anthony Borgia; the second is “A Wanderer in the Spirit
Lands”, by Franchezzo; and the third is Emanuel Swedenborg’s “Heaven and its
Wonders and Hell, From Things Heard and Seen”, first published in 1758.
My apologies to historical figures that appear in these
stories. I have no idea what they’re really doing in the spirit world, but have
endeavored to treat them with all due respect.
The Author ~ Portland,
Maine ~ November 7, 2010
The Significato
Journal ~ significatojournal.com
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He was very surprised when he
died. No amount of death scenes can prepare an actor for the real thing,
even a Shakespearean actor. One can rehearse being stabbed, and poisoned, and
shot, and even hung. But how can one prepare to be hit by a truck as one
crosses the street? It is especially grievous if it is the street that one
lives on. Edward had carefully locked the door of his theater on Grove
Street, and had paused to admire the new sign that
proudly declared to the cultured wits of Greenwich Village
that the Wild Theatre was at the top of its form.
Seeing his reflection in the glass door of the theater, he
paused, and ran a comb through his thick black hair, carefully tousling a few
curls. Theater owners must keep up appearances, even when they are simply
crossing the street to purchase a lottery ticket, as Edward did, every day at
lunch time. Satisfied with his appearance, he thrust the comb in his pocket and
stepped onto the street, glancing at the sky as he did so. A drop of rain had
fallen on his red brocade vest, which was not a happy thought, since it had
been hand sewn at great expense. His concern about his vest was rudely
interrupted by the nasty sensation of being lifted from the pavement by the
front end of a speeding truck. His body slammed against a light pole with such
force that it looked like a pair of broken scissors, all askew.
This bloody and unexpected event was not what surprised
Edward. It irritated him, to be sure. He even felt a twinge of anger toward the
driver of the truck, who had slammed on his brakes and was now sitting in his
cab in shock. No, it was not just getting hit by a truck that astonished him.
One might expect such things in Manhattan.
His bewilderment stemmed from the incongruity of seeing his body sliding down
the lamp post and realizing that he was looking at it from the sidewalk.
He looked down and felt his legs to make sure that they were
intact. Unlike the broken limbs splayed out in front him, they were in perfect
repair. He checked his vest, and saw nary a rip or spot of blood; not even the
offending drop of rain that had inadvertently precipitated his death. It was
indeed strange. He shook his head and blinked, wondering if he was dreaming. If
it was a dream, it was extraordinarily real, for there he stood, surrounded by
a gathering crowd of New Yorkers who were staring in fascination at the very
broken mess of his very dead body. Among murmurs of “Gawd, did you see that!”
and “Is he dead?” and “Of course he is, stoopid!”, Edward stood entirely dazed
and confused. And surprised.
“Feeling fuzzy, are we?”
A man standing next to him was looking at him, smiling.
“You can see me?” Edward asked.
“Of course,” the man replied.
Edward waved his hand at the crowd around him. “But they
cannot!” He leaned forward and spoke to a woman in front of him, but she
ignored him, and continued to gawk at his corpse. Turning back to the man, he
said, “See?”
The man nodded. “Yes, I see.” He took Edward’s arm and
squeezed it. “It’s because they are not dead.”
This statement was at first hard for Edward to grasp. He was
not a mathematician, or even a philosopher. He did appreciate logic, so after a
few moments of chin rubbing, he looked at the man, and said, “Oh. That means
you’re dead.”
“Yep,” said the man.
When one has died, but is still standing upright in
seemingly perfect health, one has questions. Edward had many, and was just
beginning to formulate a list of them when the man tugged at his arm and said, “We
have to go. They are coming.”
“Who?” asked Edward.
The man pointed down the sidewalk. Two men and a woman were
pushing their way through the crowd of onlookers, kicking and slapping at
people as they passed. Their blows had no effect, since their hands and feet
went through the bodies of their victims without being noticed. Edward’s
stomach turned, ever so slightly, as he looked at them. He had seen many creepy
denizens of Greenwich Village, but these three were
unusually nasty looking creatures. One of the men was extremely rotund, with a
bald head oozing with boils, as if he’d been in the sun for far too long. His
suit was black and shiny, giving Edward the impression that he might be with
the Mafia. Perhaps from New Jersey.
The second man was in his twenties, and had a distasteful,
gleeful look about him, the kind of look that some young men have when they
pull the wings off flies.
It was the woman who was the most noticeable to Edward. She
was tall and curvaceous and was wearing very little clothing, even for New
York. Edward had a profound appreciation for the
beauty of women’s bodies, and for a moment was distracted by her figure. Then
he looked at her face. Oh, what a face! Her mouth had a horribly stretched
appearance, and her eyes were deep pools of blackness that gave one the sense
of falling into a grave.
“Who are they?” asked Edward.
His companion shook his head. “I’ll tell you someday. Do you
like carnival rides?”
Before Edward could reply, he found himself high above Greenwich
Village, zooming toward an opening in the sky. He looked down,
just in time to catch a glimpse of the roof of his theater before it
disappeared from view. He was in a tunnel; a deep, inky black tunnel that felt
warm and soothing, which was a good thing, because Edward had considered
vomiting as he looked down at Manhattan.
Heights were not welcome companions. Now, as he traveled upward through the
tunnel, he wondered why he wasn’t feeling claustrophobic. The tunnel was
peculiar, holding him closely in an embrace, like arms that traveled with him
as he shot rapidly toward a flicker of light.
Just as he decided that he really liked the tunnel, the spot
of light became a large round opening that immediately dissolved, leaving
Edward sitting on a grassy hill overlooking a river. His guide was sitting next
to him, calmly chewing on a long piece of grass. With an impish grin, the man
took the grass from his mouth and pointed with it, across the river.
“Look,” he said. “There’s the city.”
Edward looked, and saw a city crowded with spires and
towers, with a large ridge running through its center. As he turned back to his
guide, he was startled by a shadow skimming across the hill. Glancing up, he
saw a long, oblong vehicle of some sort flying in the direction of the city. It
was completely silent, and very sleek looking.
Edward had read many science fiction novels growing up, and
had a particular fondness for flying vehicles. They were certainly nicer than
trucks that hit one when one wasn’t looking. He wanted to ask his guide about
the craft, but was forestalled when the man took his arm and suddenly jumped
straight up into the air.
He began to panic until the man squeezed his arm again. He
must have had a special power in his hand, because Edward’s fear vanished, even
though by this time they were at least a hundred stories up. They stopped
suddenly, without a quiver, and hung there, floating far above the landscape.
The countryside was magnificent. The river and city lay in
front of them, while on their left, Edward saw the haze of a distant mountain
range. Turning to his right, he saw the ocean glistening in the distance.
Craning his neck around, he saw rolling hills and woods behind them, with
dwellings nestled among the trees. After a moment, they started floating toward
the city at a leisurely pace.
Edward’s mind was flooding with questions as he turned to
look at his guide. The man was still holding his arm, which seemed to be Edward’s
only visible means of support, and was smiling at him. It was a nice smile, and
made Edward feel quite relaxed.
“Who are you?” Edward asked. “Are you an angel?”
His guide shook his head and laughed. “Nope. Not an angel.
Although they could have sent one, I suppose, but they thought I’d do quite
nicely. I’m just a man, like you, although I’m much older than you. My name is
Rhys.”
Edward looked at him closely. He seemed to be in his late
twenties. He was rather handsome, although his nose was a bit squidgy. He was
clean shaven, with long hair that was braided down his back. He was wearing an
elegant lace shirt with crimson trim, and comfortable looking trousers. His
clothes gave him the look of a Bohemian artist. It was his eyes however, that
grabbed Edward’s attention. They were a rich brown color and were the warmest
eyes he had ever seen. Edward just wanted to keep looking at him, but then Rhys
laughed and broke the spell.
“How old are you?” asked Edward.
Rhys rubbed his nose thoughtfully. “Well, let’s see. I was
born in Wales,
before the Romans came, in 83 BC by your calendar, so I’m now over two thousand
years old.” He looked at Edward slyly, and said, “Do I look it?”
Edward shook his head. “No, not at all.”
Their forward motion ceased as he spoke, and they began
their descent to the edge of the city. They floated down into a courtyard in
front of a marble building adorned with thick white pillars. As they walked to
a bench and sat down, a great blue heron flew by, slowly thrumming its wings.
Edward felt a rush of pleasure as he followed it with his eyes.
Rhys was watching him closely, and said, “I was told that
you love herons, so I arranged for one.”
“I do!” exclaimed Edward. “How did you know?”
“We know everything about you, Edward,” Rhys said. He held
out his hand and a small mirror appeared in it. He handed it to Edward and
said, “Take a look in the mirror.”
Edward gingerly took the mirror and looked into it. At first
he didn’t see anything unusual, but then, as he gazed at himself, he realized
that he had grown younger. He was almost forty, but he now looked more than ten
years younger. The grey at his temples was gone.
He handed the mirror back to Rhys, who took it and looked at
himself for a moment. He grinned at Edward as the mirror disappeared.
“Just wanted to make sure I still looked the same.”
Edward rubbed his head, feeling a bit confused. Then he
rubbed his right temple harder, and said, “Hey! My headache is gone!”
Rhys looked at him sympathetically. “You had them for a long
time, didn’t you?”
Edward nodded. “Too long.” He stood up and stretched. He was
over six feet tall, and well built, but had suffered for a long time from shin
splints and a bad knee. Traipsing around Manhattan’s
cement sidewalks hadn’t been good for his legs. But now, as he walked around
the courtyard, he realized that he felt wonderful. All of his pain was gone.
He walked back to the bench and sat down next to Rhys. It
was a warm sunny day, and he suddenly felt hot in his red brocade vest.
“Would you like to wear something cooler?” asked Rhys.
Edward was startled, and stared at Rhys. “I didn’t say
anything. How did you know what I was thinking? And yes, I wouldn’t mind a
cooler outfit.”
Rhys looked up and down his body, as if measuring it.
Without a by-your-leave, Edward’s body was covered by a bright blue cotton
robe. Edward almost jumped up, but then realized that all of his clothes were
gone under the thin robe, even his underwear.
“Rhys! What did you do?”
Rhys was trying to hide his laughter. “I thought I’d start
with a basic robe. Then you can add on from there. What would you like?”
“How ‘bout some underwear?”
“Really?” Rhys asked. “How come?”
“What do you mean, how come?”
“Most people don’t use underwear here,” Rhys replied. “There’s
no need, since we never have to use the bathroom. That’s true even for animals.
No more dog poop on the lawn. No more litter boxes.”
He paused, and thought for a moment. “Of course, if you want
to wear underwear, you can. I suppose you could even go to the bathroom if you
wanted to, although I’m not sure about that.”
He shuddered, and said, “But who would want to? Yuck.”
“I see your point,” said Edward. “Yuck, indeed.”
Rhys nodded. “The system here is incredibly efficient, and
seems to be completely focused on making life easy, and bringing people joy.
The food we eat converts naturally to pure energy. We don’t even have to eat if
we don’t want to. Our bodies are supported by the energy of this place, and
maintain their youthful appearance based on our quality of heart. Women don’t
even need to wear bras to keep the shape of their breasts.”
Rhys started to chuckle, and said, “My wife loves that, by
the way, and I don’t mind it either. In fact, in certain situations, you don’t
even need to wear clothes. Like swimming, or sunbathing, or walking in your
garden. You can wear whatever you like.”
Edward looked at his robe, and then at Rhys, and then at his
robe again. He had never imagined that being dead would be so interesting.
“I’m not sure how to describe what I want to wear,” he said.
“Just visualize it in your mind, and I’ll help you,” said
Rhys.
Edward thought for a moment, and then, just as he formed a
picture of an outfit in his mind, it instantly replaced his robe. He was
wearing a white cotton shirt, linen trousers and white sneakers. He glanced at
Rhys admiringly.
“That was pretty cool,” he said.
Rhys looked down modestly. “Why thank you,” he replied. “You
can get your red vest back any time. I’ll show you how later.”
Edward stood up, and declared, “So. I’m dead, right?”
Rhys nodded. “Yep.”
“So how come we even have bodies? How come we’re not wispy
globs of ectoplasm floating around on clouds?”
Rhys snorted, and said, “Would you enjoy that?”
“No,” said Edward.
“Well then.”
“And this is heaven?”
“Well, it’s not hell, but it’s not heaven, either. It’s what
we call a middle realm.”
“What’s that?”
Rhys stood up, and took Edward’s arm. “You’ll see.”
“We’re not going to fly again, are we?” Edward asked.
“No, no, not now.” Rhys patted Edward’s arm reassuringly. “Let’s
walk into the city.”
Relieved, Edward walked with Rhys around the side of the
building, along a treelined path. As they rounded the building, they came out
at the end of a long park. They were on the ridge that ran the entire length of
the city. The ridge was wide, with gardens and trees and pathways. They stopped
for a moment, and gazed at the city. Edward privately thought that it looked more
like a town, or even a large village. What truly impressed him, however, were
the dozens of flying vehicles flitting their way through the tree tops, and in
between buildings.
The vehicles were completely silent, and some of them moved
at great speeds, and then turned, or stopped, just as rapidly. He wondered if
the occupants were feeling jostled about with such abrupt movements. Even more
interesting was the fact that there was no discernable system of roadways.
“You’re wondering why they don’t crash,” Rhys said.
Edward looked at Rhys with a bit of exasperation, and said, “How
do you do that?”
“Do what?” Rhys asked innocently.
“Read my mind, that’s what!”
Rhys just smiled, but didn’t answer as they walked along the
pathway. There were many people in the park, as if it was a holiday. As Edward
watched them, he realized that perhaps it was a holiday. Maybe every day
was a holiday when you were dead.
When they reached the center of the park, Rhys stopped, and
pointed at a vehicle that had gently touched down, hovering a few inches above
the grass. A group of people disembarked, and walked down the side of the ridge
to the town below. The vehicle was empty, and Edward approached it curiously.
It had a sophisticated swept back design that exuded class. It was a large
vehicle, and tall, so that people could stand up in it. A long window ran down
each side, and Edward could see couches and easy chairs and tables inside the
craft.
As he looked through the window, he heard a faint humming
sound, and the vehicle started to shimmer.
“You may wish to step back,” Rhys said.
Edward jumped back nervously. The vehicle oscillated
rapidly, until with barely a whisper of a sound it was gone.
“Wow,” said Edward. “Where did it go?”
Rhys nodded. “Wow, indeed. It’s been converted and stored in
an energy data bank. We don’t have ugly parking lots here.” He pointed toward
the far end of the park. “Let’s walk that way. I have someone I want you to
meet.”
As they walked, Edward said, “You have to tell me how you
read thoughts, and why you speak English since you’re from ancient Wales, and I
want to know more about flying. If you can fly by yourself, why do you have
vehicles, and what makes them go, and how come they don’t crash, with no
roadways? And what’s this data bank thing?”
Rhys laughed, and clapped Edward on the shoulder. “You’re a
curious fellow, aren’t you? A typical Welshman.”
Edward raised his eyebrows. “You know I have Welsh blood?”
“Of course,” Rhys said. “Wild is a good Welsh name. And did
you think it was a coincidence that you were met by someone from Wales?”
“I hadn’t thought about it.”
“It’s because we’re related, Edward. I’m your seventy-fifth
great-grandfather.”
“You know that?”
Rhys grinned. “Yes, of course. It just means you have to be
nice to me, because I’m your elder, even though you still look older than me.
You’ll look younger too, as you improve yourself.”
Edward wasn’t sure what to say. What could one say, when one
is looking at one’s ancient great-grandfather who looks younger than his
descendent?
“Shall I call you Gramps?” he asked.
“Ha!” said Rhys.
They had almost reached the end of the park, so Edward
persisted with his questions.
“So, what about the flying, and the data bank?”
Rhys nodded. “It’s simple. We do everything here in the
spirit world by the power of thought. Time and space follow different laws
here. We can fly through the air, because we have mental power over our
environment. We use airships, even though we can fly individually, because we
like to be together as we fly around. It’s convenient. The airships don’t crash
because we use our minds to automatically deflect crashes. Even if they did, we
wouldn’t be harmed, since we no longer have physical bodies. Nothing to get
hurt, at least not permanently. I’ll explain the data bank some other time. It’s
a bit complicated.”
“And the English?”
“I’ve had many years to learn many languages. But doing so
isn’t really necessary, even though it’s easy to learn new languages, because
our minds communicate on a subvocal level, and serve as automatic translators.
If I said a word in ancient Welsh, your mind would perceive what I meant by the
word, and you would understand the word in your modern English. It all happens
with the speed of thought, and is so seamless that sometimes you can’t tell
whether you heard me speak English or Welsh. Unless you think about it.”
“Oh,” said Edward. He felt fascinated and stupid at the same
time. “What about the poets? They love words, so what happens with that?”
“They continue to write, in whatever language they like
best. Words contain rhythmic patterns, and deep meaning, just like musical
notes. Writing and poetry are an art form here, just like the physical world.
The difference is that translation is instantaneous. We hear the beauty of the
original language and understand the meaning, all at the same time.”
Rhys continued, looking at him with amusement. “Since
thoughts are energy like everything else, we can perceive each other’s
thoughts. However, we never invade each other’s minds. We don’t go deeper than
the process of language translation without permission. We can close our minds
off to others if we wish, and if we feel that someone has done the same, we never
try to enter their thoughts, except for the mental equivalent of ringing the
doorbell.”
“But I did not invite you to read my thoughts,” said Edward.
“Yes, that’s true,” Rhys conceded. “There are a few
exceptions. One is with newcomers, because we need to guide them. Another is
with people in trouble. And in the lower realms, there is a danger of mental
attack by people with ill intent.”
Rhys turned to the right, up a path to a grassy knoll and a
beautiful white gazebo. As they approached the gazebo, Edward saw a man sitting
at a table, reading a newspaper. The man put the paper down as they approached,
and stood up. He was dressed in a white linen suit and a wide brimmed white
hat, and sported a bushy handlebar mustache. He smiled at Rhys as they came
into the gazebo, and held out his hand to Edward.
“You must be Edward,” he said. “I’m Albert Schweitzer.”
Edward shook his hand, trying to hide his astonishment. “The
Albert Schweitzer?” he asked.
“Yes, indeed, the very same,” Schweitzer said. He motioned
at the chairs and winked at Rhys. “Do sit down.”
They all sat, and Edward stared at Doctor Schweitzer. He
didn’t know much about him, except that he had been a doctor in Africa,
and had been, by all reports, an especially good man. Edward found it
disconcerting that Schweitzer looked so young, but then reminded himself that
this aspect of the spirit world was an actor’s dream. To look young forever,
without Botox. Yes, indeed, this was a good arrangement.
His musings were interrupted by the Doctor, who handed him a
piece of mango, and said, “We’ve prepared lunch for you, since your lunch on
earth was so rudely interrupted. You are hungry, aren’t you?”
“Yes!” exclaimed Edward. He had forgotten all about lunch,
and suddenly felt famished. He accepted the mango, and bit into it. It was
incredible, putting all California
mango growers to shame. With a dribble of juice running down his chin, he
asked, “So, we can eat delicious food after we’re dead? Not just little squares
of colored protein?”
Rhys laughed and handed him a cloth napkin. “Of course we
can eat delicious food. The only people who struggle with lack of food are
those unfortunate souls in the lower realms. In the middle realms, you can eat
whatever and whenever you like.”
Doctor Schweitzer regarded him kindly, and asked, “Rhys has
told me that you like sushi. Would you like sushi for lunch? Or tonkatsu? Or
something else, entirely?”
Edward dabbed at his chin, and nodded. “Sushi sounds very
nice, thank you.”
As he put the napkin on his lap, a large plate of sushi
appeared before them, complete with chop sticks and dishes of soy sauce and
wasabi and ginger. Edward’s eyes widened, and he looked at Rhys.
“This instant creation thing is really cool,” he said.
Rhys picked up a piece of tuna. “Yes, indeed,” he said. He
closed his eyes briefly, and then proceeded to eat with gusto.
They were silent for a short while as they ate. Edward was
grateful for the silence as he gazed around the park. He was still in shock
from his death. It felt like only an hour had passed since he was hit by the
truck outside his theater. He tried to imagine what was going on with his body,
and what his friends and fellow actors would say when they found out about his
death. He suddenly felt a wave of angst as he thought about his theater, and
the performance that night, and his understudy, who was most assuredly
unprepared to replace Edward in his role. He must have started to breathe a
little hard, because suddenly Rhys put his hand on Edward’s arm and squeezed
it.
Edward grunted and put his hand on his head. He felt quite
faint all of a sudden, but Rhys’s hand on his arm was comforting. After a
minute or two, he sighed, and sat up and looked at Rhys and Doctor Schweitzer
with embarrassment.
“I’m sorry. I’m not used to being dead. I should be
rehearsing right now for my role as Shylock in The Merchant of Venice.
It’s opening tonight at eight.”
Doctor Schweitzer looked at him sympathetically, and handed
him a cup of tea. “Drink this. You’ll feel much better. It’s a special kind of
tea we give to new arrivals.”
Edward sipped it tentatively. He couldn’t decide what it
tasted like, because as he focused on one taste, the taste changed, and eluded
him. It did taste good, however, so he continued sipping it. It was warm and
made him feel pleasant inside. For a minute he wondered if it was mixed with
alcohol, but Rhys caught his thought and shook his head.
“No, it’s not whiskey,” he said. “It’s a special herbal tea
that just makes one feel good.”
Doctor Schweitzer nodded, and said, “It’s shocking isn’t it,
arriving here when you didn’t expect it?”
Edward nodded as he sipped more tea.
The Doctor continued. “I’m sure that your affairs on earth
were important, Edward, but unfortunately, there’s nothing we can do about them
right now. We will arrange a visit for you as soon as possible, with your
mother, and with your friends that you were close to. And your father, as soon
as he wishes it.”
The mention of his father and mother made Edward feel sad
again, so he drank more tea, which helped a bit. The tea made him feel dreamy
and without realizing it, he closed his eyes as he thought about his parents.
His mother, Elizabeth, had been a stage actor. She loved
Edward, and said that he was the only good thing to come from her marriage to a
Connecticut sheep farmer. Richard
Wild had been a gruff and unimaginative man, and entirely unsuited to Elizabeth.
She had divorced him when Edward was a teenager, and rather quickly married a
man who had attended her performances for many years.
When Edward had questioned her haste, she had shrugged, and
said, “Edward, dear, he’s a Latin lover with a great deal of money. I must
survive.”
When she moved to her new husband’s cattle ranch in Argentina,
she kissed Edward on the cheek and promised to support his high school dreams
to be an actor. She had followed through, paying for his tuition at Juilliard,
and then sending even larger sums of money to start his own theater after he
graduated.
Richard had died of pneumonia one wintry day, with Edward
and Elizabeth by his side at his sheep farm north of Mystic. It was a
depressing afternoon, with no other relatives in attendance. In fact, Edward
had never met very many of his relatives. Some had died, and some were
estranged from his father. His mother had a few cousins in Rhode
Island, but he had never spoken with them.
After the funeral, Edward sold the farm to a condominium
developer for five million dollars. When he went back to the farm a few years
later, he was devastated by his mistake. He hadn’t realized how much he loved
nature and the countryside, and well ... sheep. Sheep were sweet and looked at
one with such innocent eyes, quite unlike some of the inhabitants of Manhattan,
who weren’t innocent at all.
The hills of his family farm, which had been covered with
trees and Shropshire sheep, were now barren abominations
crowded with the ugly McMansions of the nouveau riche. There was hardly a tree
to be seen. There were certainly no sheep.
His mother had consoled him on the phone, advising him to do
what Beatrix Potter had done, and buy some land and turn it into a park. She
offered to pay for most of it, if he would name it after her. He had promptly
done so, creating an ocean front park in southern New
Jersey, just north of Atlantic
City. Edward was a man of conscience, with a love for
children. Every summer, he took his theater troupe to the Elizabeth
Wild Sheep Park,
and put on plays for busloads of children from New York
and the surrounding area. His actors enjoyed themselves, but always teased him,
with comments of, “So, boss, what’s with the sheep?”
“Kids love sheep,” is all he would ever say.
His life in Manhattan
had been much more exciting than living on a sheep farm, and he had taken great
pleasure in creating a successful theater. His apartment above the theater was
lined with art and plants and a large collection of books. His life seemed to
be going well, in his opinion, with no particular reason for it to be cut short
so rudely.
“Yes, it is a shame,” said Rhys.
He opened his eyes with a start, almost dropping his teacup.
Rhys and Doctor Schweitzer were leaning back in their chairs, smiling at him.
“It is a shame that you died so young,” said Rhys.
Edward flushed, wondering how much of his reverie had been
apparent to Rhys and the Doctor.
“Don’t worry, Edward,” Rhys said. “We are helping you
acclimate right now. Later, when you experience your life review, your thoughts
will be private.”
The Doctor handed him a tall glass of a cool liquid, and
said, “Drink this. It’s a fruit mixture I created myself. Very helpful.”
Edward drank it, and felt a surge of energy in his body. His
sleepiness skipped away, and he sat up straight, and said, “Yes, it is a shame
that I died so young. Why did I, by the way?”
Rhys looked at Doctor Schweitzer, who nodded. Clearing his
throat, Rhys said, “Well, the short answer is that we don’t know. What we do
know is that there are many reasons for death. Some of them are simple, which
may be the case with you. You were on your way to buy a lottery ticket, and you
didn’t look before you crossed the street. If you had been more careful, you
might not have died.”
“So it wasn’t my time? It was just my own stupid mistake?”
“Perhaps,” said the Doctor. “Then again, sometimes people die
because it is their time, and it’s their time because of a long tangle of
events in their lineage. On other occasions people die because of the weight of
events in the world that are beyond their control, like epidemics or
earthquakes or war. One thing I’m sure of is that every person is loved by the
Creator of the universe, and every person will continue to grow and flourish
once they make the transition to this world. Once you’ve been here for a number
of years, you’ll realize that a person’s brief life on earth resembles the
cocoon of a butterfly. Life here is vast and grand and frankly, just plain
wonderful.”
“Except for the lower realms,” said Rhys.
“Yes, that’s true,” said the Doctor. “But even they have
hope.”
He handed Edward a newspaper. “And that’s why we’re having
lunch today, Edward. We would like to ask you to help us.”
“Me? What can I do?”
The Doctor pointed to the front cover of the newspaper. “Look
at the photo.”
Edward examined the newspaper and saw a photo of a young
woman. The caption said, “Schweitzer team to rescue Molly Kendell”. Most
astonishing to Edward was that the photograph was in full color and was moving.
As he watched, the woman turned and went to a table and began cleaning it.
He handed it back to the Doctor and said, “That’s amazing.
Just like a movie I saw.”
“Actually, the movies frequently mimic life here, without
realizing it,” Rhys said.
The Doctor nodded in agreement as he accepted the paper. “People
on earth have no idea how many of their concepts come from this reality.”
Edward tried to wrap his mind around that statement, but
couldn’t, so he simply said, “Who’s the girl?”
Rhys leaned forward and said, “Molly was born in 1575 in London.
She got attached to a rash group of individuals and drank heavily for a number
of years. After being jilted by a man she loved, she fell into a deep and
bitter despair and decided to end her life by the unpleasant method of drinking
herself to death. It took awhile, but she finally died of extreme alcohol
poisoning. When she awoke from her final stupor, she found herself trapped in a
tavern in the lower realms.”
“That seems like a cruel punishment,” Edward said.
Rhys waved his hand. “No, no, not at all. It’s not
punishment. There is no punishment in the spirit world. Everything is decided
by each person’s heart and mind. Their environment at all times is a reflection
of their internal state, their thoughts and their merit. A cruel and evil man
will find himself surrounded by ugliness and cruelty when he dies, because that’s
all he can see in his own mind. It’s because his mind is dark and loveless. In
Molly’s case, her mind was deeply depressed and locked in a desire to harm
herself through alcohol. When she awoke here, her mind was exactly the same.
Thus, her environment matched her internal feelings.”
Doctor Schweitzer picked up the newspaper and looked at
Molly’s image. “For many years, she couldn’t perceive that she was dead. She
was confused and kept trying to drink herself to death. The reactions of the
fabric of the spirit world to a person’s desires and mental state are endlessly
variegated, just as every person is different. Some alcoholics might find
themselves in a situation where they cannot obtain alcohol, even though they
want it desperately. Some might drink and drink, but never become intoxicated,
and thus live in frustration that they cannot drown their sorrows.
“In Molly’s case, her suicide brought her to an environment
where she was able to drink herself into temporary unconsciousness, but she was
never able to end her life, since of course no one ever dies in the ultimate
sense. Only their physical bodies fall away. Their spirit and consciousness
continue forever. Suicides are often profoundly disappointed that they did not
disappear into a state of oblivion.
“When Molly finally realized that her body had died, but
that she could never erase her existence through drinking, she wanted to leave
the tavern, but her desire for alcohol was still too strong. She had to cleanse
her feelings and thoughts, and in that environment, it’s not easy to do. She
had to find the way on her own to respect herself and to start thinking of
others. She is now ready to move away from that place. Thus, we have been
alerted to her situation.”
“That’s where you come in,” said Rhys. “Doctor Schweitzer is
the leader of our small group, which is one of the many thousands of service
teams that seek to help people in every way that we can. One of the things we
do is to help people like Molly find their way to a higher realm. We’d like you
to join our team. All the work is voluntary, and you can freely join each
mission, or not, as you wish.”
“Me? Why me?” asked Edward.
Rhys smiled at Edward. “Well, besides the fact that you’re
my seventy-fifth great-grandson, you have a kind heart and a fierce desire to
help others. And you’re a good actor, and good at accents and disguises, which
will help us in some of our work. We think you also might be a good detective,
which will come in handy.”
Edward’s face grew red, and he squirmed in his chair. “Well...,”
he said.
“Yes, well,” said Rhys. “You do have some problems. You’ve
wasted quite a bit of your mother’s money, and the money from the farm, with a
severe gambling addiction. It wasn’t a coincidence that you built the sheep
park next to Atlantic City.
Misusing hard-earned resources is not a virtue when you arrive here.”
Edward’s face grew even redder, and he looked at his napkin
in his lap. Doctor Schweitzer patted his hand and said, “This isn’t to judge
you, Edward. We also have difficulties that we have to overcome. Rhys says this
to give you perspective about your character, and also to warn you that if you
join our team, your various weaknesses will be a challenge.”
Rhys nodded, and said, “They’ll be a challenge even if you
don’t join our team, but our team often visits the lower realms to help people.
Your weaknesses will be confronted there much more strongly, just as our flaws
will be too. Do you feel up to the task?”
Edward looked at Rhys and the Doctor and realized that he
didn’t know what to say. It had all happened extremely quickly.
“May I think about it?” he asked.
“Absolutely!” said the Doctor. “Rhys will escort you to your
home, and when you’ve decided, he’ll come and visit you.” He stood and shook
Edward’s hand and said, “I look forward to seeing you again, soon, however you
decide.”
“Thank you,” Edward replied.
Rhys stood and said, “Give me your hand, Edward.”
Edward extended his hand, and as Rhys grasped it firmly, the
gazebo and Doctor Schweitzer shimmered rapidly, and the two of them were
standing in front of a small one room cottage nestled in a grove of poplar
trees.
• • •
Rhys opened the door of the cottage and waited for Edward to
enter first. He did so, and looked at the room with dismay. It was clean, but
oh so very simple. There was a bed, an easy chair and a dining room table with
one straight-backed chair. Each wall had a window, with each windowsill adorned
by one small pot of snapdragons. And that was all.
“This is my home?” asked Edward.
“It’s your temporary home,” replied Rhys. “Do you not like
it?”
Edward gestured around the room. “It’s not what I’m used to.”
Rhys patted Edward’s shoulder. “Yes, I know. None of the
glitz of Manhattan. None of the
distractions. But you need time to think and reflect about your life. To become
quiet inside and think about your desires. Many people never do that. This
world responds to our thoughts and desires, so when a person arrives here, they
often have to sort things out before they find their dwelling place.”
He stepped to a window and looked through it. “Take some
time, and explore the countryside around here. There’s no one living in this
area, so you’ll have time for yourself. There are many animals and birds,
however, to keep you company.”
Rhys walked the few feet back to where Edward stood, and
clasped his hand and patted his cheek in a fatherly way. “If you’d like to eat
or drink, just ask for food, and it will appear in front of you. When you want
to talk with me again, just call me in your mind, and I’ll come as soon as I
can.”
“Okay. Thanks,” Edward replied. Before he could say more,
Rhys waved and vanished.
Edward stared at the spot where Rhys had stood, and then
gazed around the room of the cottage. He suddenly felt oppressed by its
sparseness, so he opened the cottage door and stepped into the sunshine.
The cottage was made of stone, and stood nestled against a
hill covered with poplar trees and birches. In front of the cottage, a path
followed a small brook down into a meadow and a valley far below. Edward could
see a mountain range across the valley. He was startled by how much detail he
could observe. It seemed that no matter how far away something was, one could
focus one’s eyes and see the object clearly. He spied a flock of birds flying
across the tree tops of the distant mountains, and without really thinking
about it, he zoomed in on the colors of the lead bird’s feathers. The bird was
a goose, and quite unexpectedly, it turned and looked at him with a curious
eye. One doesn’t ordinarily get looked at by a goose in flight, at least not with
such piercing interest. This particular goose seemed aware of Edward’s gaze and
had a demeanor that was almost friendly.
Edward lifted his hand to wave at the goose, and then felt
rather silly. To his surprise, the goose dipped his wing in return, just before
it disappeared behind an outcrop of rock.
Bemused, Edward turned and walked back into the cottage. He
felt tired, and overwhelmed, and sank into the easy chair in relief. It was a
comfortable chair, and Edward’s breathing grew slower as he relaxed. The chair
stood opposite one of the windows, and its line of sight was centered on the
pot of snapdragons on the windowsill. Edward loved flowers, and found the
snapdragons soothing. His eyelids fluttered shut as he looked at them, until
quite unexpectedly he began to see images rushing past him on what seemed like
a scrolling movie screen. He was dimly aware that this must be the life review
that Rhys had mentioned.
He saw and heard everything that he had ever done, or said,
or thought. He relived every emotion of his past, and to his shock, experienced
how other people had felt as he impacted their lives. He saw the minute details
of his life, reproduced in a blaze of images that was as intimate as it was
rapid. At first he was afraid and embarrassed, for there were many things about
his life that he wanted to forget, and had hoped that no one would ever
discover. Finding out that all of his thoughts and actions had been recorded in
an unseen knowledge bank was extremely disconcerting to Edward.
He experienced the images as if he was both watching and
living each moment, able to feel the reality of his actions while at the same
time reflect about their value as an impartial observer. He sensed another
presence as he watched, a warm and friendly and nonjudgmental embrace that
comforted him as he peeled away images of pain that he had completely
forgotten.
The presence seemed to be leading him, nudging him toward a larger
perspective about his life of forty years, showing him that even the bad things
he had done or the mistakes he had made had often helped him learn and grow. He
cried when the inner movie showed him standing in a crowded grocery store
parking lot, as a young man of twenty-two. A woman had walked away from her
car, leaving her three-year-old child lying on his back on the asphalt,
screaming in the midst of a temper tantrum. The woman ignored her child, even
though he was in danger from oncoming cars. She continued to walk toward the
store without looking back. While Edward’s younger self stood watching,
confused, not knowing what to do, a man ran from the front of the store and
scooped up the child to safety.
Edward could feel the chagrin of his younger self, and his
anger and shame for not responding quickly enough to the plight of the child.
It was then that the presence encouraged him, showing him how much impact that
one brief moment in a parking lot had had on Edward’s life, how much
determination it had given him to try to help others and not stand still in the
midst of their suffering.
He didn’t know how many minutes or hours he spent in his
life review. Time seemed to be relative in the spirit world. When the images
stopped scrolling by, he breathed out a long sigh, and fell into a deep sleep.
When he woke, he looked around the room, wondering if night had fallen, or if
days had passed, but everything seemed to be the same. The warm sunlight
streamed through the windows of the cottage. The snapdragons were still quietly
meditating in their pots. Nothing had changed except his internal state. He
felt energized and lighter in spirit. His life review had indeed provided him
with a larger perspective about his life. Some of it had been quite uncomfortable,
especially the parts which one might refer to as “the naughty bits”, the
various peccadilloes that young men all too often commit without due
consideration, the infractions one doesn’t want one’s mother to discover. He
had also squirmed as images of his gambling had scrolled past. He sensed how
damaging his addiction had been, but felt reluctant to deal with the issue.
Yet, the primary effect of his life review was a sense of
peace. It seemed that a life of eternal damnation and hellfire was not to be
his lot, even though it had become unblinkingly clear to him that he was a
person with more flaws than he cared to admit in polite company.
He smiled at the snapdragons as he stood up and stretched.
At least they didn’t care about his defects. He automatically looked around for
a bathroom, thinking that after such a long sleep, he might need to relieve
himself. To his delight, he realized that his body felt refreshed and vigorous,
with no hint of the need to find a bathroom. He ran his tongue over his teeth,
wondering if he had bad breath, wondering about the need for a toothbrush. His
mouth felt clean, which pleased him almost as much as the fact that his
fillings and dental work had been replaced with solid teeth that were no longer
crooked.
He wandered over to the table, and looked down at the wooden
surface, thinking how nice it would be to have a tall glass of juice to drink,
and some fruit to eat. To his delight, a bowl of blueberries and a glass of
strawberry nectar shimmered into view as soon as he had formed the thought. The
blueberries were to die for, causing him to laugh out loud as the words went
through his mind. Yes, indeed, one had to die to have blueberries like these.
Wiping his mouth, he decided to explore his new
surroundings. When he stepped through the door, he stood in the clearing in
front of his cottage, and examined his surroundings, turning his body in three
hundred and sixty degrees. The sunshine was warm and the air was clear, with no
clouds in the sky. When he looked toward the mountain range, he was surprised
to see the sun dipping below the horizon. The tops of the mountains were
suffused with the deep oranges and reds of a magnificent sunset. As Edward
watched the top of the sun disappear, the sunset faded away, leaving a bright
blue sky behind. The daylight around the cottage was as luminous as it had been
just moments before, but the light was diffused, without an obvious source.
He looked around, wishing there was someone with whom he
could share such an incredible phenomenon. Since there wasn’t anyone, he
shrugged his shoulders and said, “Now this is something I’ve got to talk to
Rhys about.”
Deciding to explore, he shook his head in amazement and
walked up the hill behind the cottage.
• • •
Edward had always loved to walk in the woods surrounding his
father’s farm. Since his father’s death, he had spent most of his time in Manhattan,
with the exception of trips to his sheep park in New
Jersey and vacations abroad. Now, with no schedule to
follow, and daylight that never seemed to end, and a body that didn’t get
tired, he discovered that traipsing through the countryside was more
pleasurable than anything he had yet experienced in nature.
Perhaps it was because he knew that he didn’t have to be anywhere,
but time didn’t seem to matter anymore. At one point, he stopped to gaze at a
particularly beautiful cluster of wild flowers. He sat down next to them, and
communed with them for what must have been a long time. Or perhaps not. He wasn’t
sure. As he watched them, they began to sing; a wordless symphony of melodies
that would have been applauded in any concert hall. He was fascinated by their
beauty, and offered them his sincerest apology for leaving them behind when he
stood up to continue his journey. They seemed to wave at him as he left, and
sang even more enthusiastically.
Stepping over a rise, he came upon a pond surrounded by
willow trees. It was no ordinary pond, with questionable bits of green algae
floating on it, and a dark, muddy bottom with leeches lying in wait. It had
absolutely clear water that flowed from an underground stream across a bed of
fine white sand. Edward dipped a few fingers into the water and was startled by
its warmth. It was too inviting to ignore, so he stripped off his clothing and
plunged into the water.
He felt like he had suddenly been plugged into a power
source of incredible vitality. His body tingled in waves of pleasure. He
started to laugh, almost uncontrollably, with a feeling of relief and safety.
He felt embraced, and wondered how water could make him feel loved. Perhaps it
was similar to what babies felt in the womb. His life review had included that
portion of his life, and it seemed to coincide. The water also produced the
same feelings that Edward had felt once before, when he and a young woman whom
he had loved very much had joined together in a blissful hour of lovemaking.
They had laughed too, at the end, without warning or reason.
He lay floating on his back, dreamily, with a twinge of
melancholy. The young woman had later rejected him, and married another,
leaving him confused and bereft. She had been his first real love, after a
youthful period of confusing infatuations. His love life had suffered after she
left him. He had waffled between long periods of celibacy and short flings with
actresses in his theater. He had found no one that he could truly share his
heart with, and trust completely.
It was odd, but as he floated in the water, he felt
completely at home. The water seemed to be aware of his presence, communicating
wordlessly, comforting him and allaying his sadness about his broken
relationships with women. As he floated in the water, images from his life
review came back to him, showing him the faces of each of the women in turn.
The images were slower, and fewer in number, almost as if
the water of the pond was leading him in a meditation about his relationships
with women. He saw images of the face of his first love, from the time they met
until she walked out of his apartment, never to return.
When the images of their time together finished, one set of
images came back and hovered in front of his mind. It was their last vacation
together, shortly before she broke up with him. It was 2002, and they were
celebrating his thirtieth birthday. She had wanted to go to Prince
Edward Island; he had pushed for Atlantic
City. She had reluctantly given in, complaining that
they had gone there too many times.
“All you do is gamble, Edward, and lose your money. Besides,
it’s not just a vacation for you, you know. I’m supposed to enjoy it too. I don’t
really like standing around the card tables watching the back of your head.”
“I thought you liked playing, too,” he replied.
“Not as much as you,” she countered. “I think you need to
get some help.”
They had fought, but he had finally charmed her into going
one more time. They were there for a week, and the pictures that replayed in
front of him were of their last evening, when she had asked him to have dinner
in their hotel room and talk. He had been playing blackjack all afternoon, and
had agreed to meet her in the room at seven.
At five minutes after seven, she had called his cell phone.
He had assured her that he would be there soon. Unfortunately, he had started
to lose, after having won a significant amount. As he watched his chips
disappear, he fell into a familiar pattern of trying frantically to recoup his
losses. She called him one more time, at eight, and he mumbled that he would be
there soon. He returned to the room after midnight,
to find her asleep. The next day, as they packed to leave, she said nothing,
but her face and tone were remote. He knew he had repeated a serious error, and
assured her that he would try harder, but he could sense that she didn’t
believe him.
She had simply stared at him, and said, “Too many times,
Edward. Too many times.”
Now, floating in the warm water of the pond, he watched the
images of that event play out in front of him, and felt profound chagrin. In
response, the pressure of the water on his skin increased slightly, soothing
his distress to some degree.
Images of the other women he had dated moved more rapidly
across his mind, highlighting moments that had caused the breakup of each
relationship. His feelings of guilt deepened as he saw that all too often his
obsession with gambling had prevented him from being present with each of the
women. He had been kind and attentive when he wasn’t gambling, but when he
picked up a set of cards or a pair of dice, he lost his awareness of time and
his obligations.
As he had experienced in his life review in the cottage, he
felt no judgment from the images. Instead, he felt a gentle spirit in the
embrace of the warm water as he was shown how his actions had affected others.
When the visions cleared, he lay floating on his back,
looking at the sky. His feelings of shame were intermixed with confusion. He
had never truly faced his addiction before, and had managed to maintain his
self esteem based on a strong sense of compassion and kindness toward his
actors, and other people that he met. His gambling was like a broken limb that
he had hidden from himself and others. It had not entirely overtaken him, but
he finally realized how much it had damaged his life.
He looked at a flock of birds flying across the sky above
the pond, and lifted his hands slightly, and said, “Well then, what can I do
now?”
The birds didn’t answer, and neither did the pond, although
he felt embraced once again by the water pressing against his skin. With a
bewildered shrug, he kicked his feet, and dove down into the water.
He wanted to try swimming under water, and forced his eyes
to stay open. He had always had problems with opening his eyes under water, but
this pond was different. There was no irritation as the water passed over his
eyes. He had taken a full breath of air before he went under the water, and as
he swam along the bottom, he kept waiting for his breath to run out. It didn’t,
so he kept swimming, and soon concluded that he didn’t need to come up for air.
A tiny purple fish joined him in his explorations along the
sandy floor. It was an outlandish looking fish, but rather cute, with bright
yellow spots. It suddenly bumped forcefully against his cheek, and without
realizing it, he opened his mouth and inhaled a large quantity of water. His
rush of panic dissipated as he realized that the water was unlike any water he
had ever imagined. It was breathable, and felt exactly like air as it poured
into his lungs. There was no strain and no feeling of drowning. It felt clean
and profoundly refreshing.
The purple fish must have been a remarkably clever little
fish, because it wiggled around his nose as if to say, “Well, finally! Holding
your breath for so long! What a waste!”
Edward laughed, and said, “Exactly!” His voice didn’t sound
odd at all, which seemed rather odd, considering that he was talking
underwater.
The fish followed him for a short distance as he swam to the
shore, but turned away with a flick of its tail as Edward stood up in the shallow
water. The water streamed from Edward’s body as he stepped onto the bank,
leaving him completely dry. Edward stood still for a moment, looking down at
his body. There wasn’t an ounce of cellulite to be seen, and his body was toned
in a way that it had never been. The warm breeze felt glorious against his
skin, and on a whim, he decided to not get dressed right away. He slung his
shirt and trousers over his shoulder, and picked up his sneakers, and turned
back toward the cottage.
As he crossed through a meadow, he tried to fly, but as soon
as his feet left the ground, he felt nervous, and aborted the attempt. He saw
many birds and animals on his trip back, and found it entrancing that they were
not afraid of him. A porcupine walked with him on the path for a short
distance, making him just a bit uneasy, until it ambled off into some bushes.
He kept expecting it to get dark, but it never did, and as he approached the
cottage, he felt confused by the appearance of the cottage sitting in its sunny
clearing. He had no idea how long he had been gone.
The interior of the cottage was as he had left it. The empty
glass and bowl were still sitting on the table, and the snapdragons were still
quiet in their pots. The room seemed even smaller, now that he had explored the
woods beyond the cottage. He looked around and felt quite lonely. He wanted to
see Rhys again. He was about to call him, in his mind, when he realized that he
had not dressed. He quickly slipped his trousers and shirt on, and was putting
on a sneaker when he heard a knock at the door.
He walked to the door and opened it, sneaker in hand. Rhys
smiled at him, and said, “May I come in?”
Edward nodded. “Of course! How did you know I was going to
call you?”
“Your thoughts are faster than you suspect,” Rhys said. He
entered, and sat down at the table. He chuckled as Edward walked back to the
easy chair and slipped his feet into both sneakers.
“There’s a much easier way to get dressed and undressed,
Edward.”
“Really?” asked Edward.
“Yes, indeed,” said Rhys. “Just imagine your body without
your shirt, or sneakers, or trousers, or visualize changing them to something
else. They’ll immediately disappear. When you want them back, just see yourself
wearing them again. It’s that simple. You can even adjust how they look while
they’re on your body.”
He pointed at Edward’s sneakers. “Try it. Just imagine that
your feet are bare.”
Edward looked at his sneakers, and thought for a moment, but
nothing happened. “Not sure what to do here,” he said.
“Don’t think of the sneakers,” Rhys said. “Just visualize
your bare feet.”
Edward tried again, and much to his surprise, his sneakers
disappeared. Looking at Rhys, he exclaimed, “I did it! But... how do I get them
back?”
“Just see them on your feet again.”
Edward looked at his feet, and watched in delight as his
sneakers popped back onto his feet. They were even tied, which was quite
convenient.
He turned to Rhys, and asked, “So where do they go, and how
do they come back?”
“Well, I’m not a quantum physicist,” Rhys said. “I was a
farmer back in Wales.
But I’ve had more than a few conversations about this topic since I got here.
It’s one of the first things a person asks about when they arrive in the spirit
world. The way matter and space are manipulated here is ... what would you call
it? Mind blowing.”
“That’s a good term,” Edward replied.
Rhys tapped his fingers on the table absently for a moment. “We
could talk for hours and days about this, and some people do. But I’ll give you
the short version, as best I can.
“You’ve probably heard that energy can be neither created
nor destroyed. It’s just converted. What is also true is that the universe is
both infinitely large as well as infinitely small. One can always travel one
more mile in the universe, no matter how large it is, or divide a length in
two, no matter how small, in the same way that one can always add a number to a
sum, or divide a number in two. Because of the fluidity of the spiritual energy
fabric, the size of things in the spirit world is malleable and relative. Kind
of like the old question about how many angels can fit on the head of a pin.
The answer is that it depends on how small they make themselves. Size can be
changed in the spirit world. Thus, storage is extremely efficient. This also
means that someone who was too short in the physical world can attain a larger
size here.
“The energy of the spirit world is just as substantial as
the energy on earth, but unlike the energy on earth, it has a different pattern
and frequency that is directly and immediately responsive to the power of
thought. It doesn’t have the spatial or temporal constraints of the physical
world. There is no longer any gap of time between what we think and what we
create, unless we choose to create in a slower fashion. Are you with me?”
Edward nodded. “I think so,” he said.
“Good,” Rhys said. “You can imagine how brain twisting this
was for me, when I came to the spirit world in 48 B.C, when I was thirty-five.
I couldn’t even read or write. The amount of my knowledge back then wouldn’t
have filled a cooking pot.”
Edward started to murmur something supportive, but Rhys
waved his hand deprecatingly. “It’s perfectly all right. I wasn’t stupid. Just
ignorant, like everyone else.”
He took a breath and continued. “One of the qualities of
life here is that since we can create with the power of thought, we can also
modify or erase something that we created, all done faster than you can say
boo. The speed of light is like walking through mud, compared to the speed of
thought.
“But you asked where the sneakers went. Another one of the
truly wonderful things about the spirit world is that it’s user-friendly. That’s
the right word? User-friendly?”
Edward nodded, and Rhys looked pleased. “I like to keep up
with the current vernacular. Anyway, you don’t have to know how things work to
take advantage of them, because your mind is the interface. The spiritual
universe has the capacity to store an infinite amount of knowledge and data. When
you visualize your sneakers appearing, the mechanisms of the spirit world
convert energy into your sneakers, in response to your mental image or design.
When you want them to disappear, those same systems oblige. The pattern of the
sneakers is stored in the universal knowledge bank as an item that you created.
When you want the sneakers back, the spirit world processes your thoughts and
retrieves them for you. Others can’t affect your creations, because they’re
owned by you.”
“Kind of like my own hard drive,” said Edward. “You must
know about computers, right?”
“Of course,” Rhys replied. “In the higher realms we not only
keep up with technology, we’re the ones who invent it first. You should see my
laptop. It would boggle your mind. I may be old, but here, old means better and
more alive.”
“What about the airship? Was that stored in the same way?”
Rhys nodded. “Yes. Almost anything can be stored. Except
people of course, and anything above the plant level or food items, or things
that are shared in common with others. People and animals can’t be stored
because they are autonomous, unlike an article of clothing. But you can even
design a house and then store it away. There are no ugly construction sites in
these realms. You’re actually storing a snapshot of the three dimensional
energy pattern of the house and everything in it, down to the hot drink on the
counter and a half-eaten piece of apple pie. From sneakers to houses, it’s all
the same.”
Edward wiggled his feet inside his sneakers. They certainly
seemed real and substantial.
“How do I keep track of it all?” he asked. “I’m kind of used
to a visual interface with my laptop. I like to write by typing. And yes. I can’t
wait to see yours.”
“You can have one too, if you like,” Rhys said. “I’ll show
you later. But you’ll find that the capacity of your mind and your memory are
virtually unlimited here. In the physical world, memory is affected by the
physical brain. But here, one is able to tap into the knowledge bank at will,
and retrieve memories and data from a long time ago. There’s no decay in the
system, so you can remember something that happened a thousand years ago in
vivid detail. But it’s not overwhelming, because you can store memory and
knowledge until you need it. It’s a fascinating system.”
“Does that mean that Alzheimer’s patients regain their
memory when they come here?” asked Edward.
“Absolutely,” said Rhys. He stood up briskly, and said, “But
enough of our lesson for today, if that’s all right with you?”
“Of course,” said Edward. “Thank you. I think it’s so great
that disease and physical disabilities vanish when a person comes to the spirit
world.”
Rhys smiled, and looked at Edward. “Yes, indeed. Those are
all problems of the physical body, not the spirit.” He paused. “So, have you
decided whether you want to join our team?”
Edward nodded. “Yes, I’d like to give it a try. At least
once.”
“Great!” exclaimed Rhys. “Do you mind if we go right away?”
Edward looked around the room. There was nothing to keep him
there. Nodding, he said, “Fine with me.”
• • •
Rhys led Edward from the cottage, and grasped his arm. They
rose gently in the air until Edward could see a vast distance across the
countryside. They headed for the mountains in the distance, where Edward had
seen the goose. As they flew over the tree tops and meadows, Edward saw a few
cottages dotting the landscape. They flew on, rising as they entered the
mountain range. They continued to rise, until they reached a mountain pass
shrouded in fog. As they entered the mist, Edward felt resistance against his
body and his breathing became labored. Rhys reached behind Edward and rubbed a
spot between his shoulder blades, and the resistance vanished.
They flew through the mist for a short distance, and then it
cleared, revealing a landscape even more beautiful than the one they had left
behind. Rhys explained that each realm was inhabited by people who shared a
common level of thought and feeling. Each realm was a reflection of the
predominant spirit of its occupants, and each higher realm was based on a
deeper quality of heart and love. They continued to travel upward, through many
realms, each more beautiful than the last. At the border of each realm, Rhys
rubbed a spot on Edward’s back, which seemed to adjust his ability to enter the
higher realm. Rhys said that without a guide to accompany Edward and adjust the
vibrations of his spiritual body, he would not have been able to travel upward.
Even with assistance, a person could not stay very long in a higher realm until
growth was achieved and a person’s vibration harmonized with the spiritual
atmosphere of the inhabitants.
Edward asked him why they traveled this way, when previously
they had traveled from the park to the cottage in an instant. Rhys explained
that one could travel using many methods, including the power of thought, which
he had employed to bring Edward to the cottage.
“I wanted you to see how the layers of realms were
connected,” Rhys said.
As he spoke, they emerged from the mist into a realm that
Edward recognized. Far off in the distance, he could see the spires of the city
where he had met Dr. Schweitzer. Rhys turned away from the city, deeper into
the mountains. They flew along the top of a mountain range, until they hovered
over a mountain with a lake just below its summit. Rhys pointed at a large
stone farmhouse sitting between the lake and the edge of the mountain. A wide
stream meandered from the lake, past the farmhouse, spilling over a cliff,
creating a waterfall that rushed into the depths of the valley below, many
thousands of feet down.
“You like it?” Rhys asked. “That’s my house.”
“It’s amazing,” Edward replied.
They floated down toward the farmhouse, and gently landed on
a patio that jutted out over the valley. Luckily for Edward’s vertigo, there
was a wall at the edge. As they landed, the door of the farmhouse opened and a
woman stepped out onto the patio.
Edward didn’t want to be rude, but immediately gave up, and
simply stared. The woman was tall, with magnificent red hair that fell down her
body to her waist. She was wearing a white lace gown that accentuated a body
that was not at all ordinary. Her features were a sculptor’s dream, with a nose
that was strong and elegant, giving her a regal air. Her mouth and lips were
warm and empathic, and were at that moment being enthusiastically kissed by
Rhys.
The woman laughed, and gently extricated herself from Rhys’s
embrace. Turning to Edward, she held out her hand and said, “You’ll have to
forgive my husband, Edward. I am Isobel, and I am very happy that you are here.”
Edward blushed as he stepped forward and grasped her hand.
He was flummoxed by her beauty, and could barely stammer a greeting. She was
the kind of woman that turned men into drooling idiots, and then rescued them
with her intelligence and charm. She grasped both of Edward’s hands and looked
at him and smiled. Her eyes were warm and compassionate and as she looked at
him, he began to relax. He was trying to decide if her eyes were green, or
something more, when she broke the spell with a laugh.
“Come in, both of you!”
As they stepped into the house, Rhys grinned at Edward, and
whispered, “That’s my wife.”
The inside of the house was comfortable, with old wood
ceilings and a riot of plants throughout the house. Edward recognized the style
of some of the paintings on the walls, but couldn’t place the individual
pieces.
Rhys saw his interest and said, “They were painted by the
masters after they arrived here.”
Edward nodded, and made a mental note that he would have to
meet some of those masters. They proceeded through the living room to the right
side of the house, where they entered a sun room with floor to ceiling windows.
The room stretched from the front of the house to the back, and offered a view
of the mountain top and lake behind the house, and the stream that ran from the
lake to the front of the house, where it gave birth to the waterfall that
plunged to the valley floor below.
There were three people sitting at a round table by a
window. They all stood and came forward to greet Edward, shaking his hand
enthusiastically. There was Lucio, a thin, wiry Italian who said that he was
born in the year 1465 and had been an apprentice to Leonardo da Vinci. Edward
itched to ask him about da Vinci, but reluctantly refrained.
Then there was Scatman, a jazz singer from 1930s Harlem.
He had a wide, warm smile, and wanted to know if Edward had been to 125th
Street. Edward said that he had, but not often.
The woman’s name was Yumiko. She had been a pearl diver in
ancient Japan,
and had a powerful and vivacious spirit. They all seemed delighted to meet
Edward.
Edward turned to Isobel, and asked, “May I ask where and
when you are from, Isobel?”
“Of course, Edward,” she replied. “I was born in Scotland,
in 1124.”
“Her father was David I of Scotland,”
Rhys said.
Isobel looked embarrassed, and added, “But I was raised in a
convent, since I was illegitimate. No one knew about me. Only my mother visited
me. She was a servant in the castle.”
“Oh,” he said. He suddenly realized that he was staring at
her, with his mouth hanging open. He flushed and looked at his sneakers, not
knowing what to say.
Isobel laughed, and said, “Just so you know, when I was a
young woman in Scotland,
I wasn’t terribly pretty. My chin was too weak, and my nose was too big. My
teeth were disgusting, and I had dreadful skin. It is the wonder of this place
that we improve with age, for which I’m truly grateful. No need for plastic
surgeons.”
Rhys slipped his arm through hers, and said, “Your outward
appearance changed because of what was inside.”
Isobel smiled at him, and looked at Yumiko. “But Yumiko here
was beautiful even when she was alive. At least that’s what her uncle told me.”
Yumiko blushed, and bowed slightly. “My uncle is very kind,”
she said.
“Quite a diverse group, aren’t we?” Rhys commented.
“Yes,” said Edward. “Is this everyone in your team?”
“Yep,” said Rhys. “We’re it. Isobel comes on many of our
missions, but this time she has another matter to attend to, so she will stay
behind. And it’s time to leave now.”
He looked at Isobel. “Darling, we’ll be back soon.”
Isobel kissed Rhys on the lips and said, “Be careful.”
Rhys pointed through the window to the lawn where a tall and
sleek looking airship was parked by the lake. With a chorus of good-byes to
Isobel, they all left the house and climbed into the craft.
• • •
Edward was surprised that they were traveling by vehicle,
but Rhys told him that it was simpler for the type of operation they were
engaged in. He sat down in the front, and waited until they were all seated.
Without a sound the craft shot into the air and moved so rapidly that Edward
couldn’t see the scenery as they traveled. All that Edward could tell was that
they seemed to be descending, into darker and darker realms. As they did so,
lights came on in the interior of the craft, casting a warm glow over the occupants.
The gathering darkness outside reminded him of a question
that he had meant to ask Rhys. Turning to him, Edward asked, “I felt
disoriented at the cottage, because it never got dark. Don’t the upper realms
have both day and night? I saw the sun go down, with a sunset, but then it
stayed light outside.”
“Yes and no, and not exactly,” Rhys replied. “Once you get
used to it, it makes sense. The atmosphere is special, and catches the rays of
the sun and diffuses them around the entire planet. We have sunrises and
sunsets, as you saw, but they’re different, because before and after each one,
the daylight continues. We get to see the sun travel across the sky, but when
the planet rotates, the diffused light maintains the day. There are clouds in
the sky, that come and go, but we don’t have a weather system with rain,
because the energy for our ecology comes from a different source. The clouds
are more for decoration, and to make the sunsets even more dramatic.”
“So there is a sense of time, based on the earth’s
movements?”
“When we need it,” said Rhys. “The spiritual earth rotates,
and orbits around the sun, just like the physical earth. We use calendars for
planning our schedules, just like we did on Earth. Otherwise, it would be
difficult to plan things, like flying to Jupiter on Thursday and having dinner
with the Queen on Friday.”
“Which Queen?” asked Edward.
Rhys waved his hand absently. “Oh, any old Queen. We have
thousands of them, you know.”
“They’re amazingly approachable,” murmured Lucio. “Not like
when they were alive.”
Rhys grinned, and continued. “Some people think there’s no
time in the spirit world because we’re not slaves to time. We can ignore time,
since there are no real deadlines, and just exist, and stretch time, so to
speak. But when we all need to show up for a dinner party, without having a
conflict with someone else’s dinner party, we have to plan things, and know how
much time we have to do something else. We don’t use time zones, since it’s
always daylight. Instead, we use a universal time that we can choose to follow
or not. It’s an interesting combination of true time and timelessness that
takes some time to get used to.”
Edward laughed, and asked, “Do people use watches or clocks?”
Rhys shook his head. “Some do, but most people use their
internal clocks. We immediately know what the true time and date are, if we
feel like checking. That’s where the fluidity of our time becomes fascinating.
We can forget about time completely, and lose track of it, and never even think
about it, until we once again decide we need it. Even the sunrises and sunsets
come and go sometimes, without being noticed, if we’re busy.”
“Don’t people miss going to sleep at night?”
“No, not really. We can sleep if we want to, but most people
don’t, because we don’t normally become sleepy. We don’t need REM sleep. We don’t
need to dream. When we did that on earth, we were actually recharging our
spirits by having give and take with the spirit world. Now that we’re fully in
the spirit world, we recharge ourselves continuously. Sometimes people rest and
take it easy if they want to, but our spiritual bodies gain their energy back
extremely quickly if we ever do become tired.”
“What about the beauty of the stars, and building campfires
under the moon?”
Scatman piped in with a chuckle. “And singing around the
campfire too, right?”
Edward nodded. “Yes, things like that.”
“Very important things,” said Scatman. “In the middle
realms, people tend to have a great deal of land around their homes, and if
they wish, they can make it dark all over their property, once the planet has
rotated away from the sun, and see the stars from there. Since the air is so
clear, the stars are incredibly bright. We can focus our eyes and see huge
distances, deep into other galaxies.”
“It’s also really great for fireworks and parties,” Lucio
said. “Because it’s only dark over their land, they don’t disturb other people’s
preferences. Although, sometimes people will get together on a mountain top, or
on a beach, and all agree to make it dark for a time. Looking at the moon
rippling over the ocean is a popular activity.”
“How do they make it dark?” Edward asked.
“They just ask for it to be so,” said Scatman. “We think it’s
kind of like creating a tunnel of night through the daylight atmosphere. The
walls of the tunnel block the diffused light from the sun. We just see stars,
or the phases of the moon. It’s pretty cool. Although people don’t usually make
it dark on every rotation. It’s more of a special event thing. Once you get
used to it, having long periods of daylight is convenient. People tend to keep
busy, doing what they enjoy, and those things usually involve daylight.”
“I have to admit that I’m confused by the geography,” said
Edward. “We go up to the higher realms, and down to the lower realms, but in
your realm you can go up to a mountain top and look at the stars and planets,
which gives me the impression that those are above us. If so, where are the
upper realms? And where’s Earth?”
Scatman grinned, and looked at Rhys. “You wanna take this,
Rhys?”
Rhys rubbed his brow. “If I can,” he said. “It’s
complicated, but essentially, each realm has its own attributes and level of
freedom. A dark, lower realm will feel closed in, with almost no freedom of
movement. Individuals living there will not be able to see the stars at night,
or even fly as we do. It is almost like living underground, hemmed in by the
gloom of their misery. They cannot find their way and have no idea where they
are.
“Higher realms have more freedom. We can fly, and go to the
tops of mountains like Scatman said, where we can see the stars. We can travel
out into space, and visit planets and other galaxies. We can breathe in outer
space, just like we can underwater.”
“I tried breathing underwater,” said Edward. “A purple fish
taught me how.”
Scatman laughed, and said, “Oh, those purple fish! Sneaky
little critters.”
As they all chuckled, Rhys continued. “When people fly to
other planets, they are traveling within the dimension of their own level of
the spirit world. Someone from a higher realm could be visiting the same
planet, but there would be no interaction or awareness of each other, in either
direction. They are not even interacting with the same landscape. The easiest
way to describe it is to say that the basic environments, like the planets, are
parallel, but the details are different.”
“You mean like parallel universes?” asked Edward.
Rhys shook his head. “No, not like that. That theory assumes
that there normally wouldn’t be any interaction between the various universes.
It also says that infinite versions of each person exist, each developing
separately. That is not at all true.
“Only one version of a person exists, throughout all the
levels of the spiritual and physical universe. Each person’s identity is
unique, and each will eventually migrate from whatever level they find
themselves on after death, upward to the highest realm of all. One day,
perhaps, the lower and middle spiritual realms will be empty, and simply
dissolve, since they were created by the collective spirits of their
inhabitants. Of course, the physical world will always be necessary, for that
is where each person is born and establishes their identity. There’s no birth
in the spirit world.”
“You showed me the boundaries of some of the realms as we
traveled upward from the cottage,” Edward said. “You said each realm was like a
layer. Do you mean that they are flat? Or is each realm occupying its own
layer, overlapping Earth?”
“Lucio, would you like to answer this part?” asked Rhys. He
winked at Edward. “He likes this part. He and da Vinci talk about it all the
time.”
Lucio said, “I’ll try.” He looked at Edward and said, “Yes,
we often discuss these questions. In fact, the Master and I have been working
on a hologram to demonstrate the geography. May I show you?”
“Yes, please!” said Edward.
Lucio motioned in the air with his hands, and there,
floating in the middle of the craft, appeared a hologram of the earth.
He grinned at Edward, and said, “Really cool, don’t you
think? I like this model a lot. It’s my understanding that the realms exist in
concentric spheres, layered around the physical Earth.”
As he spoke, he moved his hands around the globe, and a
series of layered spheres of different colors shimmered into place around the
planet.
“Our realm, for example, looks like the physical Earth when
we fly into outer space. But when we look from space we can’t see the lower
realms, or the higher ones, or the physical world’s version of Earth. We just
see our realm. And our version of Earth doesn’t have the same cities or
population as the physical world’s Earth. Even the land masses are different.
The oceans are much smaller, providing more land to live on, because the spirit
world doesn’t have the same ecological requirements, like great masses of
water, as the physical world. It doesn’t run on the same systems, since
everything here is responsive to thought. The differences are quite marked. We
seem to be viewing the universe from our own dimension of reality, so to speak.”
He moved the spheres around the globe, first giving focus to
one, and then the next, to demonstrate. As he did, the topography of the planet
changed. Edward watched, fascinated, as cities sprang up and then disappeared,
in different areas around the globe.
“If you can’t see the other realms, then how do we travel
between them, as we’re doing?” asked Edward.
“That’s where the geography gets complicated,” Lucio
replied. “There are places within each realm that we can travel to, and then
from there we can travel down to the lower realms. They can’t see us, though,
unless we alter our vibrations. If we have a guide, we can travel upward. Then,
too, our guide has to adjust our vibrations, just as Rhys did with you. The
travel paths are usually in a mountain range, so it all seems natural, as if we’re
just following the terrain. There’s a route to Earth, just like any other
realm. Coming from Earth is of course quite easy, and happens in many ways,
like tunnels, or doorways of light, leading to all the different realms. The
influx from Earth can be massive sometimes.”
Yumiko piped in, and said, “Also, the nicer realms never
seem to get overcrowded. We thought that a level might become overpopulated,
but it almost seems like the land masses and the globe expand to fit more
people. We think the globe can expand indefinitely, and doing so doesn’t seem
to affect gravity, or the orbit around the sun. And the earth’s axis is
straight up and down, so there aren’t any seasons. Although there are special
areas with different types of weather, like autumn and winter, and if we like
snow or autumn leaves, we can ask for it, around our houses, but none of it
seems to be based on planetary movement. The natural laws are just different
here. We don’t have to worry about things like typhoons or earthquakes.
Everything is very safe.”
Rhys nodded, and said, “Since I came to the spirit world, I’ve
seen the population expand tremendously in some realms. But like Yumiko said,
the environment seems to stretch to accommodate new people.”
Yumiko nodded in agreement. “And there are millions and
millions of islands, all the way across the oceans, where people can live
easily, because they can travel instantly by the power of thought. New islands
appear all the time. It gives people a chance to have a private home in nature,
if they like, but it makes map making difficult.”
“I can imagine,” said Edward. “Lucio, can you show me the
layer that is our realm?”
“I will show you the realm where Rhys and Isobel live.”
Lucio waved his hand, and the globe changed. As Yumiko had mentioned, the
oceans were filled with millions of islands, and the land masses were different
in shape. As the globe rotated, Edward looked for North America,
and New York, hoping to see some
familiar geography. He was faintly disappointed to see that there was no
resemblance at all to the continents of Earth.
As Lucio moved his hands, and the globe disappeared, Scatman
patted Edward’s shoulder, and said, “Me too, Edward. The first place I looked
for was Harlem, but then I discovered that the higher
realms were so much more beautiful that it really didn’t matter after all. I
can’t say it’s a loss to not have the ugliness of New
York around. You’ll get used to it. And besides,
there are a lot more fascinating places than Greenwich Village
in the spirit world.”
“I guess I’ll have to figure it out as I go along,” Edward
said.
Rhys smiled, and said, “You will. The spirit world is huge,
and spatially confusing, but it’s so fascinating that you’ll never be bored.”
Edward looked out of the window of their craft. The
surroundings had turned charcoal grey, with barely a flicker of light. “What
about this land? Why is it so dark here?”
“Light is a product of love in the spirit world,” Rhys
replied. “The lower one goes into the realms where love is weaker, the darker
it becomes. It also becomes colder, because heat is a product of the energy of
love, too.”
As he spoke, the craft came to a halt. Edward strained to
see the landscape, but couldn’t see anything except a thick fog.
Rhys looked at Edward consideringly. “Are you up for a
challenge, Edward?”
“I’m not sure,” Edward replied. “What do you mean?”
“I’d like to ask you to employ your acting skills, and go
into the tavern to rescue Molly. Yumiko will be with you, to help you.”
Lucio spoke up and said, “The rest of us will be outside if
you have trouble. Just call us, in your mind, and we’ll come immediately. They’re
a rough bunch, but you should be okay.”
Edward hesitated, and then shrugged, and said, “Well, I’m
already dead, so I guess they can’t kill me again, right?”
“That’s true,” Scatman said. “Although they can beat the
crap out of you if you let them.”
“But you’ll heal nicely,” Yumiko murmured. She smiled at
Edward and patted his hand. “Don’t worry, Edward. You’ll be fine, and I’ll be
with you. Just be careful of your emotions. They make you vulnerable here.”
“Okay,” said Edward. “I’ll do my best.”
Rhys nodded at Yumiko, who carefully looked Edward up and
down, and then waved her hand with a flick of her wrist. She handed Edward a
mirror, and laughed as he gasped. His clothing had changed to a dirty, rough
costume of the 1500s, and his face and teeth were filthy. His dentist would not
approve. He had to admit that Yumiko was the best costumer he had ever worked
with. Her authenticity was impeccable. He grinned and handed the mirror back.
“You should have been in my theater,” he said.
“Thank you, Edward.” She blushed faintly and tucked the
mirror into a bag.
As Edward glanced at the others, their appearance also
changed, until they all resembled a disreputable band of vagrants.
Rhys handed Edward and Yumiko a capsule and a glass of water
for each of them, and said, “Swallow this pill. It will allow you to drink
their wretched brew without feeling any ill effects. It protects your energy
body from the lower vibrations of their drinks. They believe what they’re
drinking is of excellent quality. If they only knew how awful it really is.” He
shuddered. “Dreadful stuff.”
Yumiko made a face as she swallowed the pill, and said, “Their
drinks are like smelly mud.”
Edward swallowed his capsule obediently, and handed the
glass back.
“What do we have to do inside?”
Rhys handed him a leather bag. “Here are some coins of the
era. You’ll want to buy some drinks to fit in, and then when you see Molly,
speak to her alone and tell her that you’ve come to bring her to the higher
realms. She has a debt to the tavern keeper which you will have to pay before
she can leave. Even though her merit has brought her grace so that we can come
to rescue her, the simplest way to bring her out is to pay her debt.”
“I would have thought that all she would need to go upward
would be an angel or someone like you, to just come and lead the way,” said
Edward.
“Sometimes that’s true,” said Rhys. “It all depends on their
situation, and the realm that they are in. There are many ways people move to
higher realms. Sometimes they just travel upward instantly. Molly’s situation
is a little unique. But one of her ancestors has visited her, and has informed
her that someone will come to help her.”
Edward lifted the heavy bag in his hand. “How much money is
this?” he asked.
“Four pounds and a few shillings. More than a year’s salary
in Molly’s day. Just enough to pay her debts,” Rhys replied. “And enough for a
few drinks for you and Yumiko.”
“I thought we didn’t need money in the spirit world,” Edward
remarked.
“We don’t,” Rhys said. “They use it here because they think
they have to. They don’t know that they can create things with their thoughts.
Most of them can’t access the advanced parts of their minds that allow them to
create with thought because their mental states are so low. They live,
scrabbling in the dirt, making things by hand, as if they were in the physical
world. They’re confused, frankly.”
Rhys stood up and said, “Okay, I think we’re ready. Let’s
go.”
They exited the craft, and as Edward turned to look back at
it, he said, “What about the vehicle? Shouldn’t we hide it?”
Scatman shook his head, and said, “They can’t see the craft,
because it’s vibrating at a higher level. They could walk right through it and
never notice. They have never seen an airship. Their knowledge of the upper
realms is almost nonexistent.”
“How ‘bout us, then?” asked Edward.
“They can see us because we’ve lowered our vibrations
temporarily, to match theirs, although it’s superficial. Like a shell around
us, vibrating more slowly so that they can see us.”
“When did that happen?” asked Edward.
“When we added our costumes,” said Scatman.
“Oh,” Edward said, as they walked toward the inn. It was the
basest of hovels, with a broken sign hanging over the door that said, “Pig’s
Trough.”
Rhys took his hand as Edward stepped to the door, and said, “You’ll
be fine, Edward. Just remember to pay attention and keep focused. Don’t let
them know why you’re here, until the moment you’re ready to leave with Molly.
Yumiko will be there to help you.”
Edward smiled nervously, and held the door open for Yumiko
as they entered.
• • •
He stood inside the door for a moment to get his bearings.
The tavern was surprisingly crowded and noisy, which was curious, for outside
he had heard nothing. Dim lanterns hung crazily from beams across the ceiling,
casting long shadows over tables packed with revelers. At first no one noticed
their entrance, until a man sitting at the bar looked up and saw them. Pointing
toward Edward and Yumiko, he shouted at the crowd, “What ho! Newcomers!”
Most of the revelers ignored them, but a few glanced in
their direction before going back to their cups. The man struggled to stand up,
and came staggering over, thrusting his face into Edward’s. He was foul
smelling and ugly and not at all pleasant.
“Come for a drink, did you?” he asked. “Got any money, do
you?” He leered at Yumiko, and grabbed Edward’s arm, and with surprising
strength dragged him over to the bar. The bartender was watching them as they
approached, and spat into a glass and then wiped it with his apron. Pouring an
offensive smelling liquid into it, he handed it to Edward, and said, “That will
be a ha’penny, my man.”
Edward fumbled in his pouch and handed the man a coin,
having no idea what a ha’penny looked like. The barkeep looked at it and his
eyes widened. Cackling, he punched his companion on the shoulder and roared, “Hey
Jack! We got ourselves a bully rook here!” Chagrined, Edward realized too late
that he had handed him far more than a half penny.
Jack stared at him suspiciously. “Don’t know your coins, do
you? Where are you from, eh?”
“Manhattan,”
Edward said.
“Never heard of it,” Jack growled. His hand moved slowly
down to his side, and rested on a dirk at his belt. Thinking for a moment, he
seemed to come to a decision. Looking at Edward slyly, he put on an affable
air. “Drink up, your worship, drink up!”
Edward looked at Yumiko, who was ordering her own drink, and
then he stared at the dark, oily liquid in his mug, and reluctantly took a sip.
It tasted like rubbing alcohol mixed with mop water, and burned his throat so
much that Edward bent over coughing. The pill must have helped, however, for
Edward didn’t feel the rush that comes from hard liquor. Jack watched him
cough, and chortled with laughter. Slapping Edward’s back, he took his arm
again and led him toward the back of the tavern, with Yumiko close behind.
They went down a dark hallway, with torches guttering on the
walls. As they approached the back, a door opened, and a woman came out,
bearing a tray with empty beer mugs. She looked at Edward and Yumiko curiously
as she walked past them. She was of medium height, with long black hair and
pale skin. She was beautiful, but looked immensely tired, with deep circles
under her eyes. Edward recognized her immediately from the newspaper. She didn’t
seem to like Jack, for as she passed him, she shrank back against the wall as
far as she could. Jack’s eyes followed her, staring at her. He didn’t lick his
lips, though he might as well have. She shuddered at his gaze, and hurried down
the hallway.
Turning back to Edward, Jack leered and said, “Someday I’ll
bed her.”
Edward tried to look polite as he replied, “You mean you
haven’t yet?”
“No!” Jack growled. “No one has. She won’t let anyone near
her. We’ve been getting her drunk for ages, which should have worked, but it
didn’t.” He sighed, and shook his head. “She’s a difficult one. But I’ll bed
her soon, I can feel it.”
He shoved open the door, and motioned for Edward to enter.
Edward glanced inquiringly at Yumiko, who tilted her head in the direction that
Molly had gone.
“You go ahead,” she said. “I need another drink.”
Edward nodded, and followed Jack through the door. They
entered a room that was crowded with people gathered around a gaming table.
Jack guided him to the table, where two men were throwing dice. One of them had
a large pile of coins in front of him. He was relaxed, leaning back in his
chair and smoking a pipe. He had an air of grimy elegance, as if he had come
from wealthy roots, but had forgotten to bathe for many years. His gaming
partner was obese and sweaty and nervous, coughing repeatedly as he shook the
dice.
Jack leaned over to Edward and whispered, “This is his last
throw. If he loses, he’ll be back to the kitchen again where he belongs.”
Edward watched fascinated, as the man finally gathered his
courage and slammed the dice cup upside down on the table. Lifting it, he
groaned and rose from his chair, cursing his opponent, who just grinned, and
blew a smoke ring after the loser as he fled the room.
When the door slammed shut on the man, Jack grabbed Edward
by the shoulders and pushed him into the chair, where he sat, stunned. Rhys had
told them to fit in, and avoid suspicion, but gambling? He felt deeply
confused, and ill prepared.
Jack looked around at the crowd and announced, “We have a
high roller here! Just arrived from Mantan.”
“Manhattan,”
Edward said.
“Yes,” Jack replied. “Manhattan.”
Jack’s lips curled into what might have been a smile. To Edward, it seemed more
like the writhings of an unhealthy rodent standing guard over extremely moldy
cheese.
Jack picked up the dice cup and rattled the dice in front of
Edward’s face and then handed him the cup. “It’s your play, Mantan. Unless you
are a coward. Afraid to play with your betters.”
Edward looked around at the crowd pressing against the
table. They were a frightful group of diseased old thieves and half dressed
women of the night. Edward looked at them and then he looked at the dice in his
hand. He thought of Molly and Yumiko waiting for him, and then he stared at the
man across from him. The man’s eyes were almost closed as he smoked, and he was
smiling at Edward. It wasn’t a good smile. It reminded Edward of the lines from
a poem by D. H. Lawrence:
“How nice it is to be superior!
Because really, it’s no use pretending, one is superior,
isn’t one?”
Edward glared at the man, for he hated gamers who thought
they were more superior than he. Edward had lost great amounts of money at the
tables, but had never come to terms with the fact that he was actually quite a
rotten gambler engaged in a losing proposition. Perhaps it was his innate
optimism that had lead him to believe that he could win, as long as he kept
playing. Believing he could win also demanded that he believe that his playing
was superior to his opponents.
The man on the other side of the table didn’t seem to
understand this at all, for he kept smiling an evil smile and puffing on his
pipe, acting as if he had read D. H. Lawrence too.
Edward stared at the man, and then gazed around the room
once more. The eyes of the onlookers seemed to glitter through the smoke from
their pipes, and the haze in the room pressed against Edward’s senses. Jack was
leaning over him, filling his mug with more of his wretched brew. For the briefest
of moments, Edward sensed the danger curling around him, but then Jack burped
loudly in his ear, and slammed Edward’s tankard on the table.
“Well, Mantan! Shall we all call you craven?”
The crowd began to laugh, louder and louder, it seemed to
Edward, repeating Jack’s taunt. “Craven, craven! Mantan the Craven!” The women
shrieked in glee behind their broken fans, and the men stomped their boots hard
against the floor.
Edward flushed in anger, picking up his mug with a trembling
hand. The one thing that a gambler hates to be called is a coward. Perhaps he
should play just a bit, until he could figure out a way to gracefully bow out,
and return to the front room.
As Edward swigged down the ale in his mug, he didn’t bother
to look to see what was floating in it. He felt more and more confused, and his
whole body was buzzing with a heavy, slow current of strange feelings. The
atmosphere of the room grew close and hot and he didn’t hear the titters of the
people around the table. He emptied his pouch of coins onto the table and
picked up the dice cup, shaking it at his supercilious opponent. With a
flourish, he threw the dice cup down as a challenge.
“I am NOT a craven,” he said.
When the man played his round Edward flung his head back and
laughed triumphantly, looking at the crowd for approval, for Edward had won.
The crones and thieves clapped for him, and the whores adjusted their ragged
gowns invitingly.
They played for a long time. Jack kept his beer mug full,
perhaps thinking that Edward would drown in his cups. He needn’t have worried,
for Edward found himself drowning in his own frenzy as he gambled. Molly
periodically came into the room with fresh ale, but he hardly glanced at her
when she did so.
At one point, Yumiko came up to him, and placed her hand on
his shoulder. He turned to look at her, with a strange expression on his face,
and said, “I’ll come soon. Don’t worry.”
He turned back to the table, and didn’t see her leave.
At first, he continued to win, but then his luck changed,
and his pile of coins gradually grew smaller. He became angry and desperate,
and threw the dice cup down with increasing force. He glared at the man across
from him, and glared at Jack and the onlookers crowded around. Round after
round, he slammed the cup onto the table until the coins jumped across the
dirty tablecloth.
It wasn’t until he watched his last coin being swept up by
his opponent that he realized what he had done. He stared at the revelers, who
were no longer clapping, and looked at Jack, who grinned evilly at his loss.
His opponent seemed bored, and rested his head on his hand, napping.
With nothing to play with, his frenzy left him, and he was
seized with fear and guilt because the money was gone. At first, he couldn’t
move, and just huddled in his chair. He had an intense desire to throw up.
Finally, he pushed back his chair and grunted something unintelligible to Jack,
and stumbled from the room.
It took him a long time to walk from the card room to the
main room of the tavern. He stopped frequently in the hallway, trying to clear
away an overwhelming feeling of oppression. His head felt thick, and he could
barely think. He had no idea how long he had been at the table, but he knew he
had to find Molly and get her out of the tavern.
As he entered the main room, he saw Molly serving drinks. He
looked around the room for Yumiko, but didn’t see her. Not knowing what else to
do, he pushed his way through the crowd and came up to Molly as she was walking
toward the bar. She looked at him scornfully, for she undoubtedly thought
Edward was just another wastrel.
Edward stood in front of her, and said, “My name is Edward,
Molly. I’m here to help you leave this place and travel to the upper realms.”
He was embarrassed when she sneered, and said, “Your jest will
not work, sir. I have watched you play, and lose.”
With that, she tried to push by him, but Edward took her
hand in his. “No, no, please wait! I gambled, and I’m sorry for that, but I
want to help you. Let me try, please! Please!”
Her expression was skeptical, but her eyes contained a glimmer of hope, perhaps because of his apology, or perhaps because she had never met
people who said they were from the upper realms. In any case, she let him guide
her, holding his hand as they walked to the front door. By this time, Edward
was desperate to fulfill his mission, and didn’t look back as they approached
the door. With his hand turning the knob to make a run for it, Edward began to
feel relief, when to his intense dismay, he felt a fist slam into his shoulder.
Stumbling against the door, he turned to see Jack, with his hand on his dirk,
scowling at him.
“Mantan! Where are you going?” He looked at Molly, who
huddled against Edward. “What’s this? Trying to take my servant, are you? You
cannot. She cannot leave unless her debts are paid.”
“Her wages should be enough, Jack,” Edward said. “She has
worked hard for many years.”
Jack laughed. “Wages! She doesn’t earn wages. She pays for
her drink and her gaming by working. She is always in debt.” He stared at both
of them, fiddling with his dagger, enjoying their predicament. “No one ever
leaves this place unless they are paid up. That is the law here. She owes, she
stays.”
Edward squeezed Molly’s hand, trying to comfort her. Hoping
that Jack might have forgotten the amount of Molly’s debt, he turned to the
innkeeper and said, “How much does Molly owe?”
Jack sneered at him, with such a mocking expression on his
face that Edward wanted to strike him. “She owes four pounds. What you lost at
the table, Mantan.”
The innkeeper stepped close to Edward, and touched Edward’s
stomach with the point of his dirk. Edward tried to move away, but the door was
behind him, so he stopped, with Jack’s rancid breath spilling across Edward’s
face, sliding into his nostrils until he gagged. Jack seemed to be enjoying
himself immensely.
He pressed the dirk into Edward’s stomach like a needle,
pricking his skin until it drew blood. Grabbing Edward’s shoulder with his
other hand, he shoved him hard against the door and sneered, “Mantan, you did
this! You lost the money to pay her debt. I’ve seen cravens like you scores of
times. You are scum, willing to sell out a friend for a roll of the dice. You
are nothing!”
He punched Edward’s shoulder over and over, laughing,
taunting Edward. “Nothing, Mantan! Nothing!”
Edward stood against the door, his face drawn with the pain
of knowing that Jack’s accusation was true. There was nothing he could say.
Jack saw his face and laughed again, and laughed at Molly,
who simply stared at the floor, avoiding Jack’s gaze. Jack spat at her feet,
and then turned back to Edward with a scowl.
“I prefer to have her,” he said. “I was planning to bed her,
but I am obligated by the rules to say that you can pay for this doxy by taking
on her debt as your own and staying in her place. You will have to wait on
tables just as she did.”
Edward stared at him in horror. Gazing around the tavern, he
saw again how ugly it was. The thought of staying in that place, with the
temptation of gambling to eat away at him and increase his debt forever,
brought bile up his throat until he started to cough.
Wiping his mouth on his sleeve, he looked at Molly, who
seemed confused. He stared at her until she bit her lip and lowered her head.
Her face was very tired. Edward thought of Rhys and the others, and of Isobel
and Dr. Schweitzer, and the lands that he had seen so briefly. He raised his
hand and pressed hard against his forehead, trying to still a suddenly
throbbing headache.
He felt suffocated, and looked at the tavern door longingly.
He wanted to fling it open and run. Instead, he slumped to the floor and leaned
his head against the wall, unable to form a coherent thought. Images of his
mistreatment of his girlfriend came flooding back to him, reminding him of his
failures with women. He had wanted to be kind to them, but his gambling had
always interfered. His sense of shame was crushing, and he started to breathe
heavily and rapidly, until Molly sat on the floor in front him, and gazed at
him, her face filled with concern.
“Are you ill?” she asked.
He nodded assent, but couldn’t speak.
Jack sat down at a table by the door, and put his feet on
the table. Grinning wickedly, he said, “Poor Mantan. Not feeling well, are we?”
Edward stared at the floor blindly, ignoring Jack. He
thought about calling out to Rhys, or leaving the tavern to ask him for advice,
but rejected the idea immediately. He was disgusted with himself, and couldn’t
imagine asking his team members for help. His self-accusation was complete.
He felt dull, and unable to think, and had no idea how long
he sat on the floor, staring at the cracks in the planks by his feet. It must
have been more than a few minutes, because Jack suddenly leaned forward, and
spat on the ground next to him.
“Hey, Mantan! What will it be? There are tables to be
cleared, and beer mugs to wash. Looks like I’ll be able to bed the doxy after
all, eh?”
Edward looked at Jack and noted again how ugly he was. He
glanced at Molly, who had been sitting in front of him patiently. Her lip was
trembling and she was staring at the floor. Edward wanted to kick himself, but
since he couldn’t, he shrugged, and looked back at Jack.
“I will stay,” he told Jack. “But you must let her leave
now.”
Jack eyes widened at his decision, but nodded in agreement.
He stood up and walked to the door. Opening it, he motioned to Molly. “Too bad
I could not coax you into my bed. You would have enjoyed it.”
Molly turned to Edward and took his hands in hers. She
looked at him, with tears running down her cheeks, and whispered, “Why are you
doing this?”
He gazed at her sadly. “It was my mistake, Molly,” he said. “I
brought the money to pay your debt, but I gambled with it instead. I may be a
gambler, but I couldn’t live with myself if I let you stay.” He nodded at the
night outside the door. “My friends are waiting for you. You need to go now.”
Molly squeezed his hand and suddenly leaned forward and
kissed him hard on the lips. “God bless you,” she murmured. She stood, and then
she was gone, with the door closing behind her.
Jack snickered cynically, and grabbed Edward by the arm and
hauled him up from the floor. Pointing to a dirty table in the corner, he said,
“See that table there? Clean it up! You will be here forever.”
Edward’s head was still pounding as he stumbled toward the
table. He clumsily placed the beer mugs on a tray, dropping one in the process,
eliciting an angry yell from Jack. He made many excursions to the kitchen as he
cleaned the tables of mugs and dinner plates, and was cursed at by a number of
the customers, who seemed to prefer Molly’s charms to his own. His sense of
depression and exhaustion deepened as he grimly went about his tasks. He felt
thoroughly condemned.
When he saw his face in a mirror, on the way to the kitchen,
he stared in disgust at his pallor. “Serves you right,” he muttered.
It seemed to Edward, in the intensity of his misery and
self-condemnation, that many, many hours passed. He cleared dishes away, only
to have more to pick up as patrons came and went. The customers were an ugly
lot, and Edward grew more and more certain that he had arrived in hell. He was
thus extremely surprised as he returned from the kitchen, carrying an empty
tray, to see Rhys standing by the door, talking quietly with Jack.
Rhys handed Jack a pouch, which he reluctantly accepted.
Catching Edward’s eye, Rhys smiled, and motioned to him to come to the door.
Edward did so, tripping over his feet in his eagerness. When he reached him,
Rhys took his hand and led him through the door of the tavern without a word.
Outside the tavern, Edward could barely look at Rhys. He had
no idea what to say, and was trying to formulate a sentence, when Rhys stopped
him and said, “Let’s talk in the vehicle.”
They made their way to the airship where Edward was greeted
with exclamations of joy and relief from everyone. Lucio kissed him on both
cheeks, and Scatman almost crushed him with a bear hug. Yumiko took his hand in
hers and stroked his cheek, and then hugged him with a dazzling smile. Molly
curtsied deeply and kissed his hand, blushing as she did so.
They led him to a couch in the craft, and as they took off,
rushing upward, Edward started to cry. His chin was shoved onto his chest and
he could barely look at the others. Through his tears, he said, “I’m so sorry
to all of you, and to Yumiko, and to Molly. I let you all down.”
They accepted his apology, gravely, for what Edward said was
true.
Looking sidelong at Rhys, Edward blurted out, “Why did you
come back for me? How could you come back for me? I hadn’t paid Molly’s debt!”
Rhys put his hand on Edward’s shoulder and said, “But you
did pay it.”
Edward was confused. “What do you mean?”
“By your willingness to stay in her place, you paid her debt
and yours too. You repaired the wrong you had done. We were watching you, and
were worried that you weren’t going to make it. Molly was in no real danger,
for her own merit would have freed her. You however, were at risk.”
Yumiko took his hands in hers, and said, “I’m sorry I had to
leave you in there, Edward. Once you started gambling, and would not stop, I
was unable to interfere. One of the laws of the spirit world is that everyone
must fulfill their own responsibility. So, I left the tavern to tell the others
what had happened. Rhys said that we had to wait and see what you would do.”
Lucio clapped him on the shoulder, making Edward wince. “You
gave everything, in the end, Edward. We’re proud of you. A lot of people would
have just walked out of the tavern and left Molly to her fate.”
“What would have happened if I had?” asked Edward.
Lucio looked at him seriously. “Molly would have been
rescued by us. Your situation would have become much more complicated. Your
spirit would have changed for the worse, and become darker and more selfish.
You might not have been able to come back with us.”
Molly had seen Edward wince, and said diffidently, “Jack was
hitting him on that shoulder, and he pressed his knife into Edward’s stomach.”
Lucio looked apologetic, and said, “Sorry, Edward!”
Yumiko raised Edward’s shirt to see where the dirk had been
pressed into his stomach. There was a congealed spot of blood, just below his
navel. She took her right hand and pressed it gently onto Edward’s stomach,
covering the wound. Her hand started to glow, and pulse, and after a moment,
she lifted it. The wound had disappeared. She then laid her hand gently on
Edward’s shoulder until he wiggled his shoulder and told her that the pain was
gone.
Molly’s eyes widened, and she stared at Yumiko. “Are you a
witch?”
“No, no!” Yumiko laughed. “This is normal in the spirit
world. Our bodies are made of energy, and heal easily. We cannot be permanently
hurt. What looked like blood was actually part of Edward’s spiritual energy
body. It was easy to reconvert it into its normal state. Even though our bodies
look like they did in the physical world, their internal structure is quite
different. Our spiritual bodies can emit fluids, like tears and saliva and even
blood, because they serve a purpose. But everything can be modified with thought.”
“Thank you, Yumiko,” Edward said. “You have been very kind
to me. And forgiving. You were my partner, and I let you down.”
Yumiko shook her head. “Don’t worry, Edward.”
Rhys had been deep in thought, and finally said, “Edward, I
should have explained Molly’s situation more clearly before you went into the
tavern. I don’t know why I didn’t. I guess I didn’t think that things would
happen as they did. I’m sorry about that.”
“What do you mean?” Edward asked.
Rhys looked embarrassed. He looked at Molly, and said, “I’m
sorry to you, too, Molly.”
Turning to Edward, he said, “I told you that it was simpler
to just pay Molly’s debt. What I failed to tell you was that the only reason we
were going to pay her debt was because she believed so strongly in Jack’s rule
that the debt had to be paid. Her belief was based on fear, and was inflexible.
We thought about trying to convince her that it wasn’t necessary, and that she
could leave at any time, with us, but as you saw, Jack became violent. We
thought it was easier to just pay it.”
“You mean I could have just walked out with her?” Edward
asked.
“Technically yes,” Rhys said. “But after gambling the money
away, you had created a spiritual atmosphere in your mind that was deeply
depressed and guilt-ridden. You also would have had a tremendous fight with
Jack if you had tried to leave. Your status was quite problematic because you
had done something so self-centered and damaging. What might have been simple
had become tangled. We felt intuitively that we had to leave you alone at that
point, to allow you to make your own victory. Which you did, admirably.”
Edward was silent for a few moments, trying to digest what
Rhys had said.
Molly interrupted his thoughts, and said, “I am sorry that
my wrong belief caused so much trouble for everyone, and for you, Edward.”
He looked at Molly, and replied, “Well, my gambling
addiction didn’t help.”
Yumiko touched his cheek again. “But Edward, staying behind,
in the tavern, for Molly’s sake, changed something in your soul. You will feel
the difference soon.”
Scatman grinned at him. “Yumiko thought maybe we asked you
too much, too early, but you came through in the end. Congratulations, man. You
made it over your first hurdle.”
Edward bit his lip as he looked at everyone. “I feel like I
failed miserably. Why are you all so nice to me?”
Rhys laughed, and said, “You came to the area of the spirit
world where people are nice. The mean people live in other places. Don’t worry.
You’ll get to meet them, if you wish.”
Edward folded his arms in front of him, and tried to huddle
himself into a smaller package against the couch cushions. He remained
unconvinced of his redemption, and struggled against a wave of depression. He
had never met people with such kind hearts, and was not at all confident that
he belonged with them, as the craft flew silently away from the lower realms.
He felt battered by his mistake, and by his brief imprisonment. The realization
that he might have utterly failed, and been trapped in the tavern, was so
horrible to contemplate that he began to breathe heavily again, feeling quite
ill.
Yumiko sat down next to him, and put her arm around him,
squeezing him tightly against her. Edward had never had a sibling, but he
imagined that Yumiko’s hug was what it must feel like to have an older sister.
He sighed and rested his head on her shoulder as the others chatted and
laughed, doing their best to raise his spirits, telling Edward not to worry,
for if he only knew what they had done! Molly watched them, and watched Edward,
not knowing quite what to make of it all.
During the rest of the trip, while Edward sat silently, the
conversation among the others was very lively. Molly had many questions, for
she had been confined to the tavern since she had arrived in the spirit world.
Her last point of reference was the year she died, in 1599, when As You Like
It had just started its run at the new Globe Theatre. She had only seen it
once, but she remembered that she had enjoyed it. She had no idea that over
four hundred years had passed, since time in the spirit world was so
subjective, especially in the lower realms. She still thought that she was in
her twenties or thirties, and was aghast when Yumiko told her that she was over
four hundred years old. She kept pinching her cheeks, looking for wrinkles in
the mirror that Yumiko handed her.
Edward liked her immensely, and not just because she had
kissed him. As they rose through the many levels of the spirit world, she
watched in fascination as the light outside the craft grew brighter and the
landscape became more colorful.
The craft finally came to a gentle halt behind Rhys’s house.
They disembarked and walked to the door, where they were greeted with hugs from
Isobel. She immediately took Molly under her wing, and ushered her away. Edward
learned later that the first thing Molly did was soak in a warm bath that
Isobel had prepared for her.
The rest of them sat on sofas in the sun room for awhile,
gazing out over the valley below, watching hundreds of birds wheel back and
forth in the sunlight. Edward began to feel relaxed and safe once again, so
much at home that he suddenly woke with a start and realized that he had fallen
asleep on the couch. Rhys was smiling at him, amused at his consternation.
Edward looked around and said, “Where are the others?”
“Lucio and Scatman and Yumiko have gone to their homes,”
Rhys replied. “Molly is resting, and will continue to sleep for some time. Her
time in the tavern has left her weak, and her spirit needs to be restored.”
Isobel entered as he spoke and sat down on his lap, hugging
him. She looked at Edward, with her amazingly warm smile and said, “Molly asked
me to thank you once again, before she fell asleep. She is very grateful to
you.”
Edward blushed and stammered, “I’m sorry I didn’t do better.”
They both shook their heads. “You were wonderful at the end.
That’s what counts.”
Rhys untangled himself from Isobel and stood up, reluctantly
Edward thought, for he could see that Rhys was enjoying cuddling with her.
Tweaking her nose, Rhys smiled at her, and said, “It’s time to take Edward to
his new home.” She nodded and came over to Edward and kissed him on the cheek.
“Come back soon, Edward,” she said.
• • •
Edward said that he would, and in the next instant, he and
Rhys were standing in front of a cottage on the edge of a river. It had two
stories and was much bigger than the one room cottage that Edward had stayed in
before. There was a beautiful garden in the front, with trees all around, and
there was a great blue heron standing in the river, watching them with one
beady eye.
It was the dog, however, that made him want to cry. It was a
big, white Labrador that came bounding up to them,
wagging his tail as fast as he possibly could. He licked Edward all over his face,
until Edward had to push him away, laughing, pleading with him to stop. Rhys
watched them, very pleased that Edward liked the dog.
Edward gestured at the property, and said, “I thought I
would be taken to a cottage smaller than the first one.”
Rhys shook his head. “I understand how you feel, Edward. We
tend to forgive ourselves long after everyone else feels perfectly fine about
what we did. That’s one reason the lower realms are still so crowded. But you
must remember that even though you made a significant mistake, you resolved it
by doing something quite noble. Not everyone would have stayed in Molly’s
place. Even though you’re still accusing yourself, the truth is that you
expressed a high order of love when you sacrificed yourself. Thus, this beautiful
spot is a very real reflection of your soul.”
Edward wanted to say something, but felt uncertain as he
gazed at the house and grounds. His first mission had been unlike anything he
had ever experienced. Turning to Rhys, Edward hugged him, and said, “Thank you,
Rhys. And please thank Dr. Schweitzer for me.”
Rhys smiled and said, “I will. You’ll see him again, and all
of us too, if you like. We’d like you to stay on our team. Would you like to?”
“Yes, indeed!” Edward replied. He hesitated to ask the next
question. “Will I see Molly again?”
Rhys laughed. “Yes, if you like. We hope she’ll join our
team as well. We’ll see.”
With a wave and a smile, Rhys left, while Edward stood on
the river bank, with his new canine friend. Looking down at him, Edward rubbed
the dog’s cheek, and said, “What on earth shall I call you?” The dog slobbered
on Edward’s hand affectionately, but didn’t answer at all.
Edward grinned and said, “I don’t know why, but I think I’ll
call you Rembrandt. Is that okay with you?”
The dog barked, which Edward assumed in dog language was a
yes.
Edward sat down next to Rembrandt, and rubbed his neck,
which he liked very much. Edward felt dazed, and rather tremulous. It seemed
that more had happened in the short time since he arrived in the spirit world
than he had experienced in his whole life. Rhys was quite perceptive and
entirely correct. Edward did blame himself for his mistake in the tavern. He
began to feel upset again as he thought about it, but curiously, part of his
mind became aware of his feelings, as if he was watching himself. As he
observed his feelings inch their way down into gloom, he saw himself reach out
a mental hand and nudge his feelings back on track, telling him to stop fretting,
and look around at the beauty of his environment.
It seemed like a good idea, so he turned his body around,
with Rembrandt obediently turning with him, and looked at the four corners of
his new home.
It really was a beautiful spot. The cottage was made of
white stone, and had a green roof. There were clusters of ivy on the walls, and
bumblebees in the garden. It was a place in which any one of Britain’s
literary heroes would have felt entirely at home. It suited Edward just fine,
and his feeling of tension began to pass. He didn’t know if he was worthy to
live there or not, but something inside him stirred with excitement that one
could actually improve oneself, and quite literally go up in the world.
He had not been a total dullard on Earth, in his own
assessment of his character, but he had not spent much time wrestling with his
internal flaws. It wasn’t lack of will that had caused him to avoid
confrontations with himself, but rather a lack of awareness of the value of
doing so. Consequences should have been at the forefront of his awareness,
especially as a gambler, but ironically, they were shoved aside in the
blindness of self-deception.
Now, gazing at the beauty of his riverside home, his
awareness of his presence in that environment, and the actions that had almost
robbed him of it, pressed against his heart with a clarity that was new to him.
Edward was not a craven, of that he could be sure. Treading the boards in his
theater had taught him gumption and fighting spirit. One could not quail and
crumble in front of hostile audiences if one wanted to be a successful actor.
As he turned back to the river, and rubbed Rembrandt’s neck
once again, he felt something change in his feelings, as if a strange,
repressive mental scab had dropped away, leaving no mark at all. For a brief
moment, he thought of Atlantic City, and saw his feelings slide past the images
of card tables and roulette wheels without so much as a flicker of desire.
Of much more interest to Edward was the river in front of
him, with its sparkling waters tumbling over boulders, catching in little
eddies where purple fish might be waiting for unsuspecting visitors. He looked
at Rembrandt, who looked up at him and smiled, as Labradors
do, and then Edward laughed.
“You’re a good dog, Rembrandt,” Edward said.
The two of them watched the heron fishing, and the heron
watched them, and they all relaxed by the river bank on a sunny afternoon that
had no end in sight, for in their realm of the spirit world, life was good.
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